I Don't Understand

i get excited when you smile at me i look at you and wonder what could be i can't deny it when you look at me if you only knew what your smile does to me and when you look at me the sadness only you can see it isn't really me not who i want to be and i don't understand why i am the way i am why it's so hard to breathe so hard to be me is it so hard to believe that maybe you could love me and make it easy to breathe so i can be who i want to be it's just my silly dream or so it seems just my fantasy a dream where i can breathe and i don't understand why i am the way i am why it's so hard to breathe so hard to be me it's just my silly dream or so it seems just my fantasy a dream where i can breathe and i don't understand why i am the way i am why it's so hard to breathe so hard to be me and maybe time could wash it all away i know i dream but maybe one day you could ever say you love me so hard to breathe so hard to breathe