Ashen Existence

Once I walked in light, with friends and family by my side A steady job, a name, a place where I could hide But the addiction slowly pulled me under Now the days turn grey, the color drained from my skin A hollow shell remains where a man once lived within The life I knew is gone, reduced to ash and sin Ashen existence, grey and cold Walking through the ashes of a life I used to hold Ashen existence, joy long dead Burning from the inside, nothing left to shed Friends disappeared into the years, they moved along Family turned their backs, said I no longer belong I look just like a corpse that still pretends to stay Every morning I swear this time I’ll break the chain But the hunger always rises and drags me down again A walking shell of pain that never finds the day The craving never sleeps, it feeds on what remains A permanent torment running cold inside my veins I tried to climb a thousand times, I always hit the floor No strength left to fight, no will to face one more I will not let them watch me fall into the end Better burn to ashes than remain this living death The door seals shut, the flames will take it all No more eyes upon me, no more endless fall I’d rather turn to ashes than remain this living death Ashen… existence… ends with my last breath Ashen… existence… Ashen… existence… Ashen existence, grey and cold Walking through the ashes of a life I used to hold Ashen existence, joy long dead I choose the fire… rather than this living death