Same Four Walls

Mm... Same walls Same floor Same door Every day... Six forty-seven, alarm goes off I already know how this day gets lost Same coffee, same mirror, same face looking back Same voice in my head running the same old track I've memorised the cracks in the ceiling by heart Could draw this room with my eyes in the dark I know every creak in every single stair I know the smell of the same stale air And I keep saying tomorrow I'll go I keep saying I'll leave but I never do Something holds me to the floor Like I forgot what I was fighting for Like I forgot there was a door Same four walls and I can't get out Same four walls and I can't get out I know every inch, I know every doubt Same four walls And I can't Get out Same four walls... Wednesday feels like Monday feels like last year I've had this same conversation, I swear With myself in the mirror at quarter to nine Telling myself that I'm doing just fine I've got a list of the places I'll go A drawer full of plans I'll never follow through I've started over seventeen times in my head But every morning I wake up in the same bed And I keep saying tomorrow I'll go I keep saying I'll leave but I never do Something holds me to the floor Like I forgot what I was fighting for Like I— —forgot there was a door Same four walls and I can't get out Same four walls and I can't get out I know every inch, I know every doubt Same four walls And I can't Get out Same four walls... Same four walls... Same four— I had a dream I left I had a dream I ran I had a dream the door was open And I just — stood there Couldn't move my hands I had a dream it was easy I had a dream I was free I had a dream about a life That looked a lot like me But wasn't Same four walls and I can't get out Same four walls and I can't get out I know every inch, I know every doubt Same four walls And I can't Get out Same four walls I want out I want out I want— Same four walls ...and I can't get out Mm... Same walls Same floor Same door Tomorrow...