[Verse 1] Running from today and age. Suffering through the pains and aches. Searching for relief and comfort, It’s never a long stay. Long days, Through the same place and state of mind, I’m questioning when the day will be That I take my life. I’ll take my own eyes, So I no longer need to cry. It feels like I’m walking Through a dry, sandy desert. With each step, I become lesser. My mind festers Trapped inside the cycle of benders. Life’s playing chess While I’m playing checkers. Seeing the same board, But entirely different colours. I dig into the ground, Not for my own grave, But to get the sun off my back. The heat of the moment Keeps driving me under. Will this place take me, Or will I fall to my feet From my own hands? [Hook] What have you done to yourself? What have you done to yourself? You were searching for some help, Now you’re hiding from yourself. What have you done to yourself? What have you done to yourself? You keep digging deeper down, While you’re trying to save yourself. What have you done? What have you done? How’d you come so undone? What have you done to yourself? [Verse 2] Another morning, Another weight upon my chest. Another promise to myself That I’ll somehow get some rest. But the night keeps getting longer, And the days keep looking grey. I keep searching for an exit From a life I can’t escape. I’ve been running from the mirror, Running from the years. Running from the person I became beneath the fear. Every bottle, every bender, Every temporary fix, Only bought another moment Before I’m right back in this. [Pre-Hook] Maybe I don’t need an answer, Maybe I just need some time. Maybe every thought that tells me I should disappear is lying. I don’t know what’s waiting for me, I don’t know what comes next. But I’m still standing in the desert, With the sun against my neck. [Hook] What have you done to yourself? What have you done to yourself? You were searching for some help, Now you’re hiding from yourself. What have you done to yourself? What have you done to yourself? You keep digging deeper down, While you’re trying to save yourself. What have you done? What have you done? How’d you come so undone? What have you done to yourself? [Verse 3] I count the cracks beneath me Instead of counting all the days. Try to measure how much farther I can walk beneath this weight. The sand gets in my shoes, The heat gets in my head. Every step feels like a warning, Every breath feels like a debt. But somewhere underneath it, There’s a part I haven’t lost. Buried underneath the damage, Still refusing to be gone. I don’t call it hope yet, I don’t know if that’s its name. Maybe it’s just stubbornness That keeps me in the game. [Bridge] So let the world keep playing chess, I’ll learn the board eventually. Let them see the colours differently, They don’t have to look like me. If I fall, I’ll hit the ground, If I break, I’ll make a sound. But tonight I won’t become Another thing they have to count. [Final Hook] What have you done to yourself? What have you done to yourself? You were searching for some help, Now you’re hiding from yourself. What have you done to yourself? What have you done to yourself? You keep digging deeper down, While you’re trying to save yourself. What have you done? What have you done? How’d you come so undone? What have you done to yourself? [Outro] Running from today and age, Still carrying the weight. Maybe I don’t need forever, Maybe I just need today. The desert hasn’t disappeared, The sun is still above. But I took another step forward When I thought I couldn’t walk. I dig into the ground, Not for my own grave. I dig until the heat lets up, Until I find some shade. Maybe tomorrow finds me different. Maybe nothing really changes. But for one more night, I stay.
