"Freedom Forced" DJ Stealth... stealth... stealth...stealth I call your phone everyday hoping that you answer. So why do I freeze and hang up everytime you do? I can't find the words to say to you. Hello or hi just doesn't seem appropriate. My heart beats so fast at the sound of your voice. My heart breaks just as fast at the sound of your voice. Defeated is the feeling I feel as the phone dies. Thoughts of how it could have been but never was. Your voice is a reminder of twelve years wasted. I want what will never be and what never was. I long to be a distant memory of what I wish never was. I need closure to carry on and move on with my life without you. Closure I know I will never get from you. How do I close a chapter in a book that is a memory of non reality. How do I move forward when there was no ending to a non existing story? A hopeless romantic stunned by the reality of a sociopathic killer. The attempts on my life that were failed because of my pathetic will to live. Maybe had I just laid down and surrendered and let you take my life I would have the closure I am longing for. I'm dying inside still. Dying for closure. Dying for love. Dying to be noticed. Dying to be someone's everything. Dying to be... Free!!!
