[Verse 1] I said yes again With salt in my mouth Carried your needs home Like groceries in a brown paper bag Kept my own name small Kept my phone face-down Smiled through the dinner While my hands shook under the table [Pre-Chorus] I learned to bend first Before I could break I’d rather be useful Than hear your sighs say my name [Chorus - dance beat] Don’t be mad at me Don’t look so hurt I make myself smaller Just to keep your world from falling Don’t be mad at me I’d take the blame If I disappoint you I go back to hurting me [Verse 2] I wore the bruise like proof That I tried hard enough Stayed up too late fixing What wasn’t mine to fix at all Picked at every scar Till the skin went thin Called it being honest But I knew I was digging in [Pre-Chorus] I learned to bend first Before I could break I’d rather be useful Than hear your sighs say my name [Chorus - Dance Beat] Don’t be mad at me Don’t look so hurt I make myself smaller Just to keep your world from falling Don’t be mad at me I’d take the blame If I disappoint you I go back to hurting me [Bridge] What if I say no? What if you stay? What if the room holds still And nobody turns away? I’m tired of bleeding To keep the peace I need to be loved Even when I’m not easy [Final Chorus, vocals and drums only] Don’t be mad at me Don’t look so hurt I make myself smaller Just to keep your world from falling Don’t be mad at me I’d take the blame If I disappoint you I go back to hurting me Don’t be mad at me Let me learn How to stay whole When I don’t earn every word
