fade

i recall the worlds i built as a boy, sheltering me from the rage. living beneath my skin, its netting woven into the core. its tendrils spiderweb through my fractured spine, he is with me for all time, or so they say. how you start that journey is how it ends; none of it matters anyway. it is just another day, time just fades away, day after day, words you can no longer say. i left what was me in the memory of tomorrow. i stitch myself with what remains, though my heart never feels the same. how to define, deify a god that sets the world to die? oh dear god, oh dear god, oh my fucking god… why let them suffer? just a tired man whose life has been on mute, move like water, flow like the sea; even time bends to a full heart. if only for moments in infinity, out in the void, the universe holds a memory of me, from the birth, infancy, to the man i'll never be. so pen the lines, in between the rhyme, for stories told, and for the many that were never told. it is just another day, time just fades away, day after day, words you can no longer say. i left what was me in the memory of tomorrow. i stitch myself with what remains, though my heart never feels the same. how to define, deify a god that sets the world to die? oh dear god, oh dear god, oh my fucking god… let them suffer?