© 2026 Aedth/Ki-nski. All rights reserved. Lyrics and composition by Aedth/Ki-nski. Music produced using AI-assisted tools (Suno) under user ownership and license. No unauthorized reproduction, distribution, or use without permission. This song and its lyrics are original works and are protected under international copyright law. Any resemblance to existing works is coincidental. [Ki-nski] I used to trust the ground beneath my feet Now every breath feels borrowed, counterfeit A stranger wearing my name like a mask Smiling through the ruin, hiding my collapse The mirror doesn’t recognize my eyes Just panic resembling something alive And I keep praying for a version of me That doesn’t shake apart so easily I’m losing faith in my own mind Losing grip on what is real If I am still here, then why Do I feel like I disappeared? Do I feel like [Dread Seraph x Ki-nski] DEAR GOD! DEAR GOD! ARE YOU HERE WITH ME? EVERY STEP I TAKE, FEELS LIKE CLINGING TO EMPTY DREAMS, DEAR GOD, DEAR GOD, IS THIS A MEMORY, IF THIS IS THE BEST YOU CAN GIVE ME, THEN PLEASE JUST LET ME BLEED! [Dread Seraph] I used to trust the words Mother told me, when she said you always listened, I get that you're supposed to be, metaphoric, always seeing, but I don't need metaphors, I need to be heard and seen, I'll get on my knees and pray again, because it's what I'm used to, but sometimes the emptiness, feels bigger than my faith does... I’m losing faith in my own mind Losing grip on what is real If I am still here, then why Do I feel like I disappeared? [Dread Seraph x Ki-nski] DEAR GOD! DEAR GOD! ARE YOU HERE WITH ME? EVERY STEP I TAKE, FEELS LIKE CLINGING TO EMPTY DREAMS, DEAR GOD, DEAR GOD, IS THIS A MEMORY, IF THIS IS THE BEST YOU CAN GIVE ME, THEN PLEASE JUST LET ME BLEED! [Dread Seraph] I SCREAMED YOUR NAME, BUT I GOT NO REPLY, I BLEED FOR YOU, BUT WAS LEFT TO DRY, I TOOK A PLEDGE, AND EAT THAT BREAD, BUT PROMISES WERE EMPTY, AND I'M STILL LEFT WITH... NO! THING!! (I’m losing faith in my own mind) (Losing grip on what is real) (If I am still here, then why) (Do I feel like I disappeared?) [Dread Seraph x Ki-nski] DEAR GOD! DEAR GOD! ARE YOU HERE WITH ME? EVERY STEP I TAKE, FEELS LIKE CLINGING TO EMPTY DREAMS, DEAR GOD, DEAR GOD, IS THIS A MEMORY, IF THIS IS THE BEST YOU CAN GIVE ME, THEN PLEASE JUST LET ME BLEED! [Ki-nski] I came back down but nothing feels the same My thoughts are still mine, but I feel ashamed The room is real, I know it’s real, I swear But every second slips like I wasn’t there I hear my heartbeat counting like a threat A body full of panic I can’t forget And I keep waiting for the moment when I finally feel like myself again (WHERE DID I GO?) (WHERE DID I GO?) I’m right here… I’m right here… (WHY CAN’T I FEEL?) (WHY CAN’T I FEEL?) Dear God… don’t turn away I’m not asking to be saved I’m just asking to stay Dear God… if I’m still breathing Let it mean something Let it mean something (SOMETHING REAL!) (SOMETHING REAL!) (SOMETHING REAL!) I don’t want heaven… I just want ground.
