Dear Me, It's Time.

I was passionate You were the vision We were unrelenting On a sacred mission We were gonna build a world A perfect world for us We were gonna learn and create and grow In a bond that we could trust We saw the other side of fear And it looked a lot like home We were never gonna feel That feeling of alone Again But then the fall came Oh, the fall came And I was lost inside the wreckage Hearing my own name Called out like a warning Called out like a curse And every single day that followed Only felt worse And I don't feel safe I don't feel safe with anyone Is this the price I pay For everything I've done? I see the scars The visible and not Reminding me of everything That I haven't got And I hear things now I question all the time Is that your real voice Or is it only mine? A whisper in the quiet A shadow on the wall Telling me that I should never Trust anyone at all It hurts to think about it It hurts to say out loud To feel like an inconvenience Lost inside a crowd To keep it all locked up inside The only way I know But I love to learn, create, and grow I know I have to let it go And maybe there's a path for me To find some kind of peace A way to make the paranoia Finally just cease To let someone inside again And let them see the real me The one I lost so long ago The one I want to be The road is rocky, I understand It's an unpleasant climb But I will stop at nothing To take back what is mine To build a family To give them all I can To finally feel safe again To be a better woman To be the full version of me Someday You'll see I will be.