MONSTERS - psychedelicTRAUMA

[Verse 1] I keep my voice in the bottom drawer under old IDs and receipts from the store Glass on the counter That’s my third drink fire in my chest so I don’t have to think [Pre-Chorus] Told every one “yeah, I’m doing fine” Hiding my shaking hands Trading my nightmares for synthetic sleep in houses made of sand [Chorus] (The monsters from the past) still scratching at my door (I’ve tried to drown them fast) but they start to beg for more So I look in the mirror and I try to (meet my eyes) I’m not what you did to me I’m the one (who survived) [Verse 2] Pills on the table lined up like days promises melting under my gaze Smoke in my lungs turns the edges soft blur out the punches and the names I lost [Pre-Chorus] How do you speak it (Cry without breaking down?) tongue turns into stone So I build stories (where I am never hurt) and call that place my home [Chorus] (Those monsters from the past) still scratching at my door (I’ve tried to drown them fast) but they start to ask for more So I look in the mirror and I try to (meet my eyes) I’m not what you did to me I’m the one (who survived) [Bridge] I’m learning to say it small word by word (oh) hands still shaking (but my heart gets heard) Every scar, a letter in a language that I write Teaching me I’m bigger than those monster’s lie [Chorus] (The monsters from the past) Can howl outside my door! I don’t have to drink them down anymore And they don’t own me anymore When I stand in the mirror (and I finally meet my eyes) I am not in your shadow now… I survived