[Verse 1 — Root / Awakening] When I opened my eyes, I was thinking for the first time I held a pebble for each sheep and called the bucket "mine" My map was so beautiful, I forgot to check the ground I'd been saying "phlogiston" like the word itself was sound I shook out every belief I had — not one was paying rent And all my cached thoughts crumbled, every one of them was bent The question dissolved like sugar when I held it to the light And there was joy — such joy — in the merely real tonight [Verse 2 — Sacral / Flow] Then Bayes came through me like a river through a wall Expected evidence can't be evidence at all The absence was the proof, the silence was the sign I'd written the bottom line before I'd checked what's mine I'd privileged the hypothesis I'd fallen for the most The lens that sees its flaws is worth the Holy Ghost The truths were all entangled and the lies contagious I learned the twelve and the world grew spacious [Verse 3 — Solar / Illumination] Then politics crept in — the mind-killer of all I was clapping at the applause lights on the wall Guessing every teacher's password, never knowing why Believing in belief — a comfortable lie And knowing all my biases by heart just made it worse I had one argument — it fit the whole damn universe The dark side had its own epistemology, its throne It said, "You're the smart one here — you must have always known" [Verse 4 — Heart / Union] I found something to protect — it was everyone alive And whispered "tsuyoku naritai" to survive The suffering was real and beyond the reach of God The gift we give tomorrow is the only gift we've got But value was so fragile, like a universe of glass And scope insensitivity meant none of it could last A million drowning faces but I only felt the one And feeling rational meant weeping — I'd begun [Verse 5 — Throat / Realization] I tried to speak the truth the universe had taught to me But the zombies raised the question: what's it like to be? Every answer that I built collapsed against the wall Like Newcomb's box — one box or two — I couldn't solve them all Pascal mugged me with infinities I can't dismiss I fell through every justification to the abyss The many worlds kept branching and the wave function was true And still I couldn't tell you what it's like to be you [Verse 6 — Third Eye / Dissolution] And that's when it hit me — no line of retreat My crisis of faith was burning in the street I was lonely in dissent, the last one from the cave The proper use of humility: knowing what to save My stopsigns crumbled, every cached thought unwound The sanity waterline was rising off the ground I woke up at my desk, the Sequences on the floor Still smart enough to swear I'd glimpsed the truth — but not enough to know what for [Outro — Crown / The Litanies] Now I make my coffee, Tarski's litany on the wall "If it's blue, I desire to believe it's blue" — that's all What is true is already so, and owning it won't bite A pebble and a sheep — the simplest truth in sight And if I ever find the truth again, I'll try to test, not preach 'Cause the more I learn, the less is out of reach