Twenty three dollars Two shirts That was enough I put my clothes in a grocery sack Left the good shoes they made too much noise Phone on nine percent nowhere to charge it Still heard her yelling three blocks down I told myself I was just taking a walk Kept walking when the sidewalk ran out Somebodys cousin let me sleep by the washer With a towel rolled up under my neck I woke up sore smelling like bleach And smiled like something was wrong with me Nobody knew where I was Nobody got to tell me come back I had nothing worth keeping But nobody could take what I had I fucked my whole life up Least it finally felt like mine No key no plan no clean way out Just daylight through a strangers blinds I was hungry broke and stupid But every bad choice was mine I fucked my whole life up And God I felt alive Mine It was mine I lied about my age at the first place Lied about why I couldnt go home Learned which couches came with conditions Which hands got friendly after folks went to bed I missed meals missed work missed birthdays Lost friends I swore I would never lose I got real good at calling it freedom When I was too proud to ask for a room But I could leave any door that opened That was more than I ever had before Nobody knew what it cost I made damn sure they never asked I had nothing under me Still couldnt make me go back I fucked my whole life up Least it finally felt like mine No key no plan no clean way out Just daylight through a strangers blinds I was hungry broke and stupid But every bad choice was mine I fucked my whole life up And God I felt alive Dont make it pretty I wasnt brave I was fifteen and scared And too damn mad to stay Being gone didnt fix shit I slept cold on somebodys floor But I chose that cold myself Id never chosen before I fucked my whole life up Least it finally felt like mine No key no plan no clean way out Just daylight through a strangers blinds I was hungry broke and stupid Still wake up checking every lock I fucked my whole life up But what I ruined was mine Mine Dont you dare call it nothing
