Courtroom in My Head [Intro] Yeah I hear them talking again Same room Same trial Same judge wearing my face [Verse 1] I got a courtroom in my head And everybody knows my name One voice says I’m still human One voice says I’m just shame One voice says, “Take the high road” One voice laughs, “That road is closed” One voice says, “You know better” One says, “Better never chose you” I sit quiet in the middle Hands folded, eyes down Trying to look innocent While the verdict walks around I got sins in the witness chair Truth on a crooked stand Temptation in a black suit Reaching out to shake my hand [Pre-Chorus] I should walk away I should let it die But the darker voice Knows exactly where I hide [Chorus] There’s a war inside my mind And both sides sound like me One is begging me for mercy One is selling me release I don’t know who I am When the lights go red I’m just trying to stay alive In the courtroom in my head I hear right, I hear wrong I hear everything I dread God help me make it out Of the courtroom in my head [Verse 2] The good voice speaks softly Like it’s scared to take up space Says, “You can still come back from this You’re more than your mistakes” But the bad voice gets louder Puts its boots up on my chest Says, “You’ve already gone too far Might as well enjoy the rest” It knows every little weakness Every crack I tried to seal Knows the lies that sound like comfort Knows the pain that sounds like real It says, “Nobody has to know it No one sees you in the dark You can trade a piece of soul For a little quiet in your heart” [Pre-Chorus] I should shut it out I should plead the fifth But the devil in my mirror Makes a damn good argument [Chorus] There’s a war inside my mind And both sides sound like me One is begging me for mercy One is selling me release I don’t know who I am When the lights go red I’m just trying to stay alive In the courtroom in my head I hear right, I hear wrong I hear everything I dread God help me make it out Of the courtroom in my head [Bridge] Tell me I’m not too far gone Tell me I can still turn back Tell me one bad thought don’t mean I’m already dressed in black Tell me I can want the wrong thing And still choose what’s right Tell me I can hear the darkness And not obey tonight Cause I’m tired of negotiations With the worst parts of my soul Tired of calling it survival When it’s just loss of control Tired of almost crossing lines Then pretending I don’t see That every time I feed the monster It looks more and more like me [Verse 3] So I stand up in the silence While the room starts closing in Look the voices in the face Like, “We’re not doing this again” I might shake, but I ain’t folding I might bend, but I won’t break I can feel the old me reaching But I won’t give him my name I’m not holy, I’m not fearless I’m not clean of every stain But a man can have a shadow And still step out of the rain Let the jury keep on shouting Let the guilt get loud as death I still got one choice left And I ain’t lost it yet [Final Chorus] There’s a war inside my mind And both sides sound like me One is begging me for mercy One is selling me release I don’t know who I am When the lights go red But I’m learning how to breathe In the courtroom in my head I hear right, I hear wrong I hear everything I dread But I won’t let the dark decide The man I’m becoming next There’s a war inside my mind But I’m not beaten yet God help me walk out free From the courtroom in my head [Outro] Yeah The voices still talk But I don’t have to answer Same room Same trial Different verdict
