Nobody Sees These Tears

**(Hook)** Nobody sees these tears when the lights go low, I keep pain underneath what I might not show, Everybody sees the smile, never knows what's broke, I'm surrounded by a million, still I'm dying alone. Nobody sees these tears, they just see me survive, See me making all this music, never see what's inside, I say, "I'm doing okay," but that's only a lie, 'Cause I'm still grieving my brother every night that I cry. **(Verse 1)** I got sorrow underneath every syllable I spit, Got a hollow in my chest that I conceal in the mix, Got a smile on my face while I'm mentally split, Turn the pain into a melody and bury it in the kick. Everybody asks, "How you doing?" I say, "Good, I'm straight," But they don't see the conversations that I have with his name, They don't see me scrolling pictures when the nighttime gets late, They don't see the fucking tears that I swallow down with the pain. I'm proficient at pretending that I'm perfectly composed, But the pressure keeps accumulating beneath the clothes, I got memories embedded where nobody can go, And the hardest fucking battles are the ones nobody knows. I don't want their pity, I just wish they understood, That healing isn't linear just because I look good, I can laugh with everybody, I can smile like I should, Then one memory hits me and I'm right back where I stood. **(Hook)** Nobody sees these tears when the lights go low, I keep pain underneath what I might not show, Everybody sees the smile, never knows what's broke, I'm surrounded by a million, still I'm dying alone. Nobody sees these tears, they just see me survive, See me making all this music, never see what's inside, I say, "I'm doing okay," but that's only a lie, 'Cause I'm still grieving my brother every night that I cry. **(Verse 2)** I got nights where the silence gets violently loud, Where the memories emerge and I can't shut 'em back down, Where I'm staring at the ceiling with my thoughts running wild, Trying not to let the grief turn me into somebody I don't recognize. I been carrying the weight while I'm smiling in public, Everybody thinks I'm strong, they don't know that I'm struggling, They see Platinum! performing, they don't see what I'm covering, They hear the fucking bars, but don't hear what I'm suffering. Every tear that I hide has a story attached, Every scar in my heart is a piece of the past, Every song that I write is me reaching through the black, Trying to turn something painful into something that'll last. And I know I can't pretend that I'm unaffected forever, Sometimes strength means admitting that you're barely holding together, So tonight I let the tears fall, I ain't hiding the weather, 'Cause loving someone that deeply means the loss hits forever. **(Bridge)** If you see me smiling, That don't mean I'm fine, If you see me laughing, That don't mean I don't cry. There's a war behind my eyes, There's a storm behind my grin, Everybody sees the surface, Nobody sees what's within. **(Final Hook)** Nobody sees these tears when the lights go low, I keep pain underneath what I might not show, Everybody sees the smile, never knows what's broke, I'm surrounded by a million, still I'm dying alone. Nobody sees these tears, they just see me survive, See me making all this music, never see what's inside, I say, "I'm doing okay," but that's only a lie, 'Cause I'm still grieving my brother every night that I cry. Nobody sees these tears, But every tear speaks your name, And every time I let one fall, I know I'll never love you less for the pain.