**Verse 1** That day split everything in pieces Five hearts caught inside the blast Three were taken from my reaching Two came home and held me fast And ever since I count the moments Like I could somehow change the past Like if I’d spoken louder, sooner Maybe nothing would have cracked They built a story out of shadows Out of words I didn’t choose And somehow I became the villain While my children paid the dues I keep replaying every second Every door, every goodbye Wondering how a mother keeps breathing When three pieces leave her side **Pre-Chorus** Five children felt that day Five lives were pulled through fire Three were taken from my arms Two still sleep here safely tonight And somehow I still blame myself For every wound that followed after Like I should’ve had ten hands that day And somehow held us all together **Chorus** Two hands, three fires But five hearts burned that day Three were pulled beyond my reach Two stayed and watched me break I keep trying to hold the ones beside me While reaching for the ones I miss And every night I ask myself How a mother survives this Two hands, three fires And five children caught the flame I was trying to protect them While they were writing me to blame Now every time somebody’s hurting I swear I hear that old refrain: *You failed them, you failed them* Even when I know I fought to stay **Verse 2** The two who still live here beside me Carry pieces of it too They watched the world become unstable Watched me fight to make it through So when they’re angry, when they’re hurting When the house gets loud with pain I don’t just hear what’s happening now I hear that whole damn day again And the three I couldn’t keep beside me Still live inside each room In the empty chairs, the birthdays In the things I thought we’d do I wonder if they think I left them If they think I didn’t fight When I would’ve torn the whole world open Just to bring them home that night **Pre-Chorus** Five children felt that fracture Not just the three who went away The two who stayed were grieving too And I was breaking while I stayed So when I say I couldn’t save them I mean every heart involved Because nobody walked away untouched And some wounds still aren’t resolved **Chorus** Two hands, three fires But five hearts burned that day Three were pulled beyond my reach Two stayed and watched me break I keep trying to hold the ones beside me While reaching for the ones I miss And every night I ask myself How a mother survives this Two hands, three fires And five children caught the flame I was trying to protect them While they were writing me to blame Now every time somebody’s hurting I swear I hear that old refrain: *You failed them, you failed them* Even when I know I fought to stay **Bridge** I wish I could split myself five ways Put one version by each bed One to tell them I still love them One to quiet every fear inside their head One to hold the two still with me When the old memories come alive And three more reaching through the distance Saying, *Mom is still here. Mom still tries.* Because the cruelest part of losing Is wondering what they were told Wondering if someone changed the story Until my love looked weak or
