rottenchan

oh everything is so scary scary scary scary scary this tremor in my bones though it's not as if you'd know-oh and this alarm just keeps blaring blaring blaring i don't wanna get out of bed let me live inside instead please get the fuck out of my head oh! i! i just wanna feel normal but every day, i just feel so swarmed on forcefully conformed to society for as long as eyes can see why must i be hiding this, reviving this pain! and it's so draining, i'm failing i'm just so sick of explaining why i'm "wasting" my life when i just want somebody to save me or break me just as long as this pain is no longer mine uh the next time you say it's in my head i'll run, never regret it find some ditch and just fucking end it (uh) if the way to make you realise is to realise your real lies stare at me right in the eyes as my body lays oh so motionless but hey, i'd be in my best dress with a face that couldn't impress less with stitches in-between my lips a smile that'd make you feel vile double over, fuck look that’s bile because the poison you spit, bitch, whenever you speak might just change into something new maybe you should have said less oh everything is so scary scary scary scary scary wake up just to wanna go back to where i can’t be known can’t unsee what’s in my head wish you’d just shut up instead empty words, your comfort’s dead oh! i! i keep hiding, keep reviving pain i said i’d left behind try to move, try to run, but all my wires are intertwined blaring sirens in my bones tell me, can you hear the tone? i just want to feel okay but i’m only made of yesterday every lie and every fight clings to me inside im not right “you’re too much,” “just calm down” but i’d rather burn myself down draining, failing, tired of explaining wasting, waiting, always hesitating save me, break me, make me feel like maybe all this pain was never mine never, never mind! oh everything is so scary scary scary scary scary let me live inside instead please get the fuck out of my head oh! i!