[Cold Open / Hook] I look fine in the pictures I look clean in the light But I sleep like a car crash Every fucking night I smile when they ask me Like healing is a trick But I still say your name wrong Just to make myself sick [Verse 1] I changed my sheets on Sunday Like that would change my head Threw your shirt in a trash bag Then wore it back to bed I deleted every photo Then checked the recently gone Like grief has a backup folder Like pain can be undone I keep saying “I’m better” To people I don’t trust ’Cause nobody wants the truth When the truth looks like us [Pre-Chorus] And I hate how normal I can make myself seem While I’m dying in places That nobody sees [Chorus] I look fine But I’m fucked up still I’m alive by habit Not because I want to feel I don’t miss you softly I miss you like a wound Like something still bleeding In a clean white room I look fine But I’m barely here I’m just wearing my body Till it learns to disappear [Verse 2] I laugh at the right time I eat when I should I answer every message Like a person would But the sink’s full of dishes And my chest feels wrong And I keep leaving lights on Like you might come home I don’t want forever I don’t want revenge I just want one morning Where I don’t pretend [Bridge / Breakdown] Don’t tell me I’m strong I fucking hate that word Strong is what they call you When nobody comes first Don’t tell me I made it Don’t say I survived I’m just too damn tired To lay down and die [Final Chorus] I look fine But I’m fucked up still I’m alive by habit Not because I want to feel I don’t miss you softly I miss you like a wound Like something still bleeding In a clean white room I look fine But I’m barely here I’m just wearing my body Till it learns to disappear [Outro] I look fine in the pictures I look clean in the light But I sleep like a car crash Every fucking night.
