About regrets About that beautiful Long Peach colored Satin dress Holding her And yet I did Not even touch her The way that she wanted Me to Her hair Was delicately pinned up Tossed and yet Carefully arranged I tried to get a corsage Painted in gold Or was it silver When I arrived They didn’t do that Unfortunately I was underwhelmed And I think she was too And yet I was sweet Back then Bringing her mom a flower Or was it my mom Who suggested it Because she drove us from Her house to dinner At a nice Italian restaurant That my family used to Go to when we lived in Sherman Oaks Off of Ventura Blvd Where the 405 And the 101 Meet Oh Sherman Oaks Elementary Where my teacher Used to hit my hands With a ruler for talking Such fond memories That’s enough for this morning Time to take Lucy to the park Even though she is still sleeping We will not return to Metro dog Because Lucy was shaking When we get there The same shaking She does at the Vet Part stressed And yet wagging her tail I wanted to look in Because I had never been there Her mom Made arrangements When they went camping At Rock Creek There family tradition It smelled quite bad With so many dogs When I picked her up I realized my eyes bothered me because the other dogs she was with were not hypoallergenic That taking her for a walk was extra That she stayed in a small room with a Hand full of small mellow dogs For an hour or two Then let out for another Hour or two into a larger Area with even more dogs I did the best I could to wipe her down And her paws As I always do A habit I learned from my sister And her inside dog Shelby Interrupted by a follow up Call from Kaiser Because I was having Chest pains And have been feeling Like I was going to throw Up every day at work Since Dwayne had left Two weeks ago I asked if I should take The Klonopin from my other emotional disregulation Dr Chan said it was as needed And not for long term He recommended Gabepentin For anxiety I replied yes Since I don’t see the work Situation getting better Any time soon And I wanted to have it in my Back pocket In case LA with family is more stressful Than work in Mission Bay Hahahaha Until next time Thank you for listening To my prayer God Amen
