[Intro] [Eerie dark synth pads fade in over a deep tape-saturated hiss] [Heavy, distorted piano stabs strike solitary notes in a dark minor key] [A ticking clock sound blends into a rapid hi-hat roll as the sub-bass drops] [Verse 1] [Double-time rap flow, conversational but intense, tight rhythmic phrasing] Yeah, counting days again Swore the first day was the last time But look at me, two decades in Glad that I’m different, but it’s always the same grind Still remember the shadow of that withdrawal pain in my mind And all my old friends, they don't understand It's been twenty years since you've touched a bag, man it wasn't that bad You can just have one now But I know if I take one balloon so high, I'll never come down So wake me when it's over, we spent a lifetime trying to fix this Hit the meetings when I'm sober, 'cause of you I'm not resistant I'm grateful that you love me, even when I used to hate it Fucked up back when I stopped being present and got complacent I was only high cuz I was feeling so low And that was the only way to make it back to normal I suppose And I know you think I'm perfect now, but that’s a facade And living with the history of who I was is heavier than I thought So put the trophy down, I still watch what I do It never would have happened if it wasn't for you Cuz I don't face the old demons when I'm already fixed I face 'em clear-headed, comfortable in my own skin You don't know what I've done I swear to god that if you did Then your heart would be broken into a million pieces Had it all, lost it, then rebuilt it from the brink Never would have made it if you cared what they think [Chorus] [Explosive dynamic shift, layered harmony vocals, strained belting over heavy bass] Mama look at me now, I’ve been sober twenty years! And daddy, we repaired all the damage and the tears! To the one who never left me, it was all because of you! I’m standing right here, look at what we made it through! [Verse 2] [Double-time rap flow resumes, sharper snare hits locking around the beat] Yeah, and I’m just living in the happy in the end Couldn't be a hero, but we finally saved my friends You don't know where I'm at or where I'm going, where I've been So don't try to pretend I’ve got a scar that will never fade, but we stopped letting it bleed Like who the fuck are you to tell me what you think I really need? Cuz we locked away a beast that never stops until it feeds But it hasn't caught me slipping inside my dreams And I don't mean to make you nervous when you think of me Nobody is leaving me Because of you I found the people on this healing frequency I’m sitting in another meeting on the west side Raising my hand again This was always the plan again Just glad I’m no longer sick Look at that clarity Yeah, it’s different this time 'cause we do it every day though It didn't happen quick, it happened gradually Never thought that life could be this beautiful tomorrow Just got a feeling I’m winning, and I know that’s a fact Taking these blessings, things I never treat as facts And the dark will pass if you just try to let it go But you're the only reason that I finally learned to grow, know I learned how to love, I swear to god that since I did No more hearts are getting broken into a million pieces Had it all, lost it, then rebuilt it from the brink Never would have made it if you cared what they think [Chorus] [Maximum production width, full emotional climax, plates reverb wide] Mama look at me now, I’ve been sober twenty years! And daddy, we repaired all the damage and the tears! To the one who never left me, it was all because of you! I’m standing right here, look at what we made it through! [Bridge] [Drums and piano stabs cut completely, leaving an emotional breakdown soundscape] [Intimate, unlayered center channel vocal] Couldn't do this all on my own... you're the one who brought me back home. Twenty years of the light, no more walking alone. Couldn't do this all on my own... you're the one who brought me back home. Twenty years of the light, no more walking alone. Couldn't do this all on my own... you're the one who brought me back home. Twenty years of the light, yeah you brought me back home. [Outro] [Stripped back to a solitary fading piano chord and a soft tape hiss] [Vocal delivery slows down, dropping into a whisper] Twenty years... It was all because of you. Same structure. Clean slate. [Music fades out completely into silence]
