[Intro - Spoken word] I dont expect most of ya'll to understand this And I cant help how it feels But ima show ya'll a crack behind the mask ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ [Verse 1 - male rap vocals] They say I changed but I just adapted Mind scattered Through Fake laughter Talkin like nothin I have ever done mattered They ask if I am okay and I am sustainin But theirs pain in My brain when I'm slayin Demons, then look at my feet an see snake skin Mask on with the same grin Prolly sounds like I am always complainin So touchy ready to explode pull the grenade pin Im on the path but I dont see the way in Tired of over explainin Gettin drunk at the days inn Drunk drivin in the coupe Got three more to join the group Then two more leave I think I need some relief I have this dream I believe But I cant make everyone happy and I dont know what they need I am dangling my heart on my sleeve Sometimes I like to see it bleed To the ones that left I am sorry I couldnt be what you all need Some liked to talk a little to tough Some dipped because I didnt reply fast enough Some left over women I tried to protect em and give em Some solid advice Now I feel caught in a vice Some were simpin Some did get just busy livin Some said they needed to focus on their mental health but stayed spittin But I know the real reason But they never told me but I stay dreamin Some hate me now writin disses I would never acknowledge Stuck in my own bondage Like a hostage Im tryin to build everyone of my people a platform At the same time honin my craft so I can transform Do a interview an forget a name on the list Now another leaves pissd Fuck me! Some needed to go Im just me, I am just pro Trying to do what I can But I am so high up I dont know if I can land My names startin to mean somethin But if I cant take yall with me all this means nothin I wanna drop names like I drop the beat Instead Im lookin at my own two feet With a feelin of defeat Each one that left feels like a gut punch I aint even tryna to front I'll put all this out there Yellin out in this cold air Hell of it is all the ones that left i've given shout out in songs So where did I go wrong When they werent even listening to my shit to begin with Cuz they never noticed Theirs prolly a whole twist Where they getting their toes kissed Somewhere else so Ima just focus On all the ones that have chosen to stay Ima name em all name by name relisten in a month to see who else betrays Till then Gusta you were the first Special thank you for who you are Then came star Bandofsorrow I couldnt keep these guys together without you Soul leak you were on my first feature that helped get me through Love ya my boy a true friend Brodin a recent one and I dont want our collabs to end C R or whatever the fuck you go by now Im sure you thought about leavin but you and Red murder em vowels Joker you wasnt my invite but I am glad you here Echo you still around but you feel far wish you were near Ape lincoln I know you dont take anythin serious Ya and kehmesis prolly think I am goin delirious Treven never wants to speak Sashay everythin youve touched got you buzzin on a hot streak Tiger your latest collab was somethin primal Survived stay grindin never get idle Seven ya been real since we met Shit like that I wont forget Steve welcome to it bro Millz ya music truly sounds like a legit pro Oh and Ida L T A Ya never joined us but I love your music one of my favorites and you prolly never knew it I prolly forgot a few names Watchin another dip might make me go insane Got me wonerin if anyone wants to stay anymore Guess I built a home outta open doors
