[Verse 1] [male vocals, velvet bass registry, soul delivery, smooth phrases] Born where the bells rang hard in a Catholic crowd, half-heart, half-card. Christian Brothers taught my name— first Communion, same old frame. By fourteen, I’d made my mind before Confirmation, I’d crossed that line. [Pre-Chorus] [male vocals, bass registry, soul delivery] Still I stood there straight Still I tried to wait For some fire to land In my open hand [Chorus] [gospel choir] I was never all in I was never all in I wore the coat But I missed the skin I was never all in I was never all in (never all in) Just telling the truth About where I’ve been [Verse 2] [male vocals, velvet bass registry, soul delivery, smooth phrases] Then Sweden took me in— cold air, clean streets, less talk of sin. Catholic turned to a sign— more a name than a line. Liberation books in my hands, Cardijn’s kids, and their marching plans. Back in Colombia, Jesuit halls— still I heard a bigger call. [Pre-Chorus] [male vocals, bass registry, soul delivery] Not the creed, not the show, but the way we go. Toward the hungry face. Toward a harder grace. [Chorus] [golspel choir] I was never all in I was never all in I wore the coat But I missed the skin I was never all in I was never all in (never all in) Just telling the truth About where I’ve been [Bridge] [rap, male baritone vocals] I watched the online saints The hard old rules, the holyaints Faith in a fist And a book like a list They spoke of Jesus Then played the Pharisee game Fearing science While blessing the shame And I learned my fight Wasn’t left or right It was human first It was daylight [Verse 3] [male vocals, velvet bass registry, soul delivery, smooth phrases] If my branch was close to Him Closer than some who loved the hymns Still I couldn’t kneel To what I couldn’t feel No ghost in the room No heaven in sight Just conscience and work And a harder light [Pre-Chorus] [male vocals, bass registry, soul delivery] So I laid down the mask Stopped the old half-ask Called my own soul read And said what I meant [Chorus] [Gosple choir] I was never all in I was never all in I wore the coat But I missed the skin I was never all in I was never all in (never all in) Just telling the truth About where I’ve been [Outro] [male vocals, velvet bass registry] Not in anger, not in spite Just a cleaner name for night I don’t call myself a Christian now I call it honest, and I bow to how I was never all in I was never all in (never all in) Just telling the truth About where I’ve been
