I been biting my tongue so long My teeth got grooves in it Everybody got advice Nobody got skin in it Wake up already behind Coffee don’t touch it Phone full of problems Money can’t fix shit Too tired to care Too angry to rest Got people depending on me While I’m falling apart in my chest And I know what I’m supposed to say Keep pushing Keep faith Man shut the hell up I’ve been carrying bricks for days Smile at work Shake hands Act stable Then get in the car and scream Like a fucking animal Because everything feels personal now Every little thing’s a knife Wrong tone Wrong text Wrong look Wrong time Don’t ask me if I’m okay You don’t want the real answer I THINK I’M LOSING MY MIND NO I THINK I LOST IT LAST WEEK Now I’m just walking around Trying not to let everybody see I got pressure in my ribs Fire in my teeth Every little problem feels six feet deep I DON’T NEED HELP I NEED THE WORLD TO STOP JUST SHUT UP ITS A BAD DAY TO BE ME!! Whole damn life feel one missed call from collapse One more bill One more task One more person asking for more when I’m tapped Everybody gets a piece Nobody asks what it cost They just see me standing They don’t see what I lost I stopped enjoying things Stopped sleeping right Stopped feeling human Stopped turning off at night Got ten different versions of me Trying to survive One wants to disappear One wants to fight One wants to quit One wants to run One says keep going And I hate every one So don’t tell me breathe Don’t tell me reset I’ve been resetting so much I forgot who I am besides a little bitch I don’t want peace I want silence I want one damn hour Where nobody needs me Where nothing breaks Where my brain doesn’t turn every thought Into a loaded gun I THINK I’M LOSING MY MIND AND I DON’T EVEN CARE Break something Say something Burn out in the open air I got pressure in my ribs Fire in my teeth Whole damn world hanging off me AND IF I SNAP DON’T ACT SURPRISED You watched me bend And called it strength ITS JUST A FUCKING BAD DAY TO BE ME!!
