First i felt hurts inexplicable From dull throb To godamn make it stop From my feet to my face From my soul to my heart Learned to take what i need Plant nutrients amidst weeds Gain from the disease That was with me since birth Loved the Earth, disturbed by the herd Just all seemed so absurd [chorus] And then (and then i d-d-died Alright (Then i died) tried cried swallowed my pride Went on for me livin’ my only life got nothing but time but i cant spare (One more moment) pretendin’ i care For the opaque blinders You’d have me wear so (see ya sometime somewhere and take care…. Color me nowhere [verse] Procured a curious nature Despite the bites and scratching rancor Of monsters and mumblers Made out to be peers Was always told by the grown and old I was advanced for my years Praise to me but by that point already I knew not to trust their corrupt and petty Opinions about me anything or anybody. [guitar solo imitates chorus] You feel? For real, the whole spiel Felt…feels like a cheap Smoke and mirrors carnival cheat Reeking of envy and abscess Rot rigged up in a pretty dress Therefore i wore a mask of frosted glass Clear enough to see its me But not so so as to show The depths my doubt of you goes. See what im saying? I was never playing With you, for you, on your invite I was always watching warily Checking the time until ding Time for leaving. [chorus] And then i died. Bitter pill, sharp barbed quill I found a still point and rejoined the sea To depths where even death can sleep I hear you claim i missed rise, hmmm Shhh, hear the changing of tides That sweet second when two forces accept that The push will turn pull and pull to overcome I see we never had the same idea Of what was supposed to be done With our time Im happy for you I smile Close my eyes and realize my best life And bid you goodbye [chorus]
