For your love I pretended to be a believer The outcome a dream forever out of reach Within the sanctuary I am a lost child This sin is far too lonely Looking back at those three years the city was closed off The warmth I felt through masks was so precious You told me once you were oppressed like mud And everything was saved by God's grace An ordinary person like me could only watch from afar I felt ashamed before the sacred light I forced myself to believe followed you and knelt softly But truly this soul was not yet there Worship in distant places became a trial Afraid to be alone I wove lies to hide With false piety I sought your smile Never imagining that was the greatest betrayal You condemned me saying I defiled that grace I hurt your precious beliefs This mistake I can no longer undo From now on there will be no tomorrow Truth is your destiny I am not yet pure How could I ever win against you Forgive me this false believer I only mended things with lies for your love Wanting to close the distance I strayed onto a misguided path And destroyed everything within your heart To not be number one that was asking too much I can't compete with faith I know I am wrong Five years have passed yet from this storm in my heart I still cannot escape In my phone Old photographs Every time my fingertip touches them tears overflow How could I ever leave you Ah I cannot be your loyal believer I pray that you and God grow old together Leaving this liar that I am behind To walk a separate path is the right way May the Lord love you
