[Verse 1] Half-packed suitcase Dust on the window frame One ticket in my browser Cursor shaking on your name Call from my mother Says “we miss you at the table” Your laugh in the hallway Makes my knees feel unstable [Pre-Chorus] If I stay Will I lose me? If I leave Will I lose you? Every road feels like a promise Every promise feels untrue [Chorus] To go or to stay My heart keeps spinning in place I’m scared of the door Scared of the look on your face Don’t wanna hurt you Don’t wanna disappear again Trapped between two homes Caught in the middle of the pain Tell me Which way Do I break my heart today? [Verse 2] Late-night kitchen Coffee rings Unpaid bills You’re talking about next summer My chest quietly fills I scroll old photos Of my room back far away The peeling yellow wallpaper Still calls me by my name [Pre-Chorus] If I stay Will I vanish? If I leave Will I regret? Every map I try to follow Draws a circle ‘round my chest [Chorus] To go or to stay My heart keeps spinning in place I’m scared of the door Scared of the look on your face Don’t wanna hurt you Don’t wanna disappear again Trapped between two homes Caught in the middle of the pain Tell me Which way Do I break my heart today? [Bridge] What if there’s a road I just can’t see yet? (hey) Where I don’t have to lose Every part of me I’ve met One step forward Even if my hands still shake I can’t stay frozen Till there’s nothing left to save [Chorus] To go or to stay My heart keeps spinning in place I’m scared of the door Scared of the look on your face I don’t wanna choose But silence is a choice the same Trapped between two homes I’ll walk through one of these frames Whatever I break I’ll learn to love again someday