A Testimony to Myself (Remastered)

(lyrics by G.R.P. L. Music_2025) its been years I served no one but myself. I'd come home to eat . Then in bed I sleep. My wife has always been there but I never cared. Ya see my friends were all waiting and I needed to leave. When I would leave I'd hear her, crying inside. Praying out loud to God to give me the strength... She would say why to me! Please lord stop! Bring my man back to me. After drinking and lying about all the things that we'd say we done. And at the end of the night the bar lights went dim I would get up and get myself home. Out on the porch I fumbled with my keys, then push the door open . And I stood in the living room as my wife sat there her eyes were cold as she just stared up at me.... As I focused I could see she.. Was no longer with me... At that moment it all became sharp her love was now gone.. I have nothing to keep.. So I picked up my 44 that lay at her feet. Went back out the door and fell on my knees.. CRYING TO GOD TO PLEASE HEAR ME... I know what I wasted, the time that is gone, take me and do what is right in hell I need to be Now where I stand there is no sunshine.. In the cold rain there is no sunrise.. for me .. So here I stand with a bottle in hand,, and in the other my gun... Dear lord what have I done..