[Intro] (Spoken, low and controlled) You wanted the truth? Fine. I’m not a monster hiding in the makeup. I’m a mind at full volume, and a heart that still chose you. [Verse 1] I sort every thought like knives in a drawer, Lose one small detail, then I’m back at the door. Too bright, too loud, every room got teeth, Smile for the crowd while I’m fighting to breathe. They call it dramatic when I flinch at the sound, Call it cold when I need my feet on the ground. I learned every script, every glance, every cue, Then forgot who I was when I looked at you. I don’t read the room, I interrogate it, Count every exit, calculate hatred. Brain runs hot, but the face stays still, Built this sharp tongue out of sheer free will. If I go quiet, don’t call it a game, I’m trying to keep all the sparks in my frame. You saw past the fur and the venomous grin, Put your hand on my wrist and said, “Let me in.” [Chorus] I’m Cruella with the cracks showing through, Black-and-white world, but I bleed for you. I came in hard with a bottle and a plan, Now I’m learning how to stand as the woman I am. Don’t save me, love me, tell me when I’m wrong, Hold me through the noise till the panic is gone. I’m a beautiful wreck with a dangerous view, Still I choose the clear day, still I choose you. [Verse 2] I used to drink till the ceiling went soft, Trade tomorrow’s peace for a night switched off. Pour that courage straight down my throat, Borrow a stranger’s laugh, wear it like a coat. One more glass said the voice in my head, One more night and the shame turns dead. But shame keeps receipts, keeps names, keeps dates, And love can’t bloom in a room built on escapes. I broke my own rules, then blamed the design, Made every warning look almost benign. You found me shaking beside the sink, No grand confession, just too tired to think. You didn’t clap when I promised change, You watched what I did when the craving came. Now I count clean mornings, I tell you the truth, I face what I broke, I rebuild the proof. [Pre-Chorus] If I say I’m fine, check twice, check in, There’s a war behind the porcelain grin. If I reach for the past, put your palm in mine, Not to cage this beast—just remind me I’m alive. [Chorus] I’m Cruella with the cracks showing through, Black-and-white world, but I bleed for you. I came in hard with a bottle and a plan, Now I’m learning how to stand as the woman I am. Don’t save me, love me, tell me when I’m wrong, Hold me through the noise till the panic is gone. I’m a beautiful wreck with a dangerous view, Still I choose the clear day, still I choose you. [Bridge] (Beat drops; half-spoken, then rising) I am not my diagnosis. I am not my worst night. I am not the glass I shattered, not the lie I told to get by. I’m the call I make at noon, the honest answer in the car, the hand I keep unclenched, the woman learning where her limits are. When the world gets jagged, I name what I feel. When the old hunger knocks, I remember what’s real. You don’t need a queen with a perfect disguise— just stay when I’m human, and look me in the eyes. [Final Chorus] I’m Cruella, but the crown’s coming loose, No more hiding pain in a glamorous excuse. I came in hard, now I’m healing my hands, Building a life I can actually stand. Don’t save me, love me, tell me when I’m wrong, Hold me through the noise till the panic is gone. I’m a beautiful wreck, but the wreckage is through, I choose the clear day, I choose me, I choose you. [Outro] (Spoken, breathless and fierce) Same sharp mouth. Different direction. No bottle in my hand. Your hand in mine.
