Combination

[Verse 1] I'm cracking on the inside but I don't show it I harbor hide my masking words like a poet If I don't change my ways I would end up with my throat slit Maybe even with my goal hit I'm cracking go through it No shit, flashing designer Still fear in the fire, watching something in the reflection in mire Something I could never grab, this life I just had to have Guess it'll break you in half I'm a jester that forgot how to laugh I'm a unravel I should probably just cancel Everything dragging me down because I feel scramble Ready to shoot it out where's the gun battle I gotta bus travel, gimme summer lesion Dreams like the Olympian Titan that held dominion Wish life would have had better cards dealt better I have always been a trend setter, I fear far better than everyone else that ended up wherever Nightmare a failure help terror Grab me into my core Held on so tight my soul got sore [Chorus] I keep wondering what is the combination I keep looking up at constellations Philosphere caught in contemplation Junkie in love with intoxication Me and death share a name, no relation I keep wondering what is the combination I keep looking up at constellations Philosphere caught in contemplation Junkie in love with intoxication Me and death share a name, no relation Have you ever felt so misshaped You ain't alone You were persuasive [Verse 2] Yeah, I've seen the Christians that eat on Sundays that wouldn't give tips Saw a science professor deny God during the eclipse I took six trips down to hell where the hill dips Took my AK with extended clips cause life gets good then it skips I still swear my boy miserable, he might've been with me with the film strips I was young and pissed as hell coming with velocity of an archangel with authority Like these demons couldn't even stand across the city Got show me a timeline that was less chronically, canonically, all those that dare pose and end's horribly 'Cause I'm coming methodically, kind of like a chess prodigy I talk dark but speak melodically People agai don't like me 'cause I am less optically Something that looks decent They don't care to offend and then act like they don't mean it They're unrepent like they innocent But I just been searching for my place Trying my best to understand God's grace Staying pissed for all the years missed Drunk in the abyss I wish I would have went a different path Where you could have saved me from my blistering wrath [Chorus] I keep wondering what is the combination I keep looking up at constellations Philosphere caught in contemplation Junkie in love with intoxication Me and death share a name, no relation I keep wondering what is the combination I keep looking up at constellations Philosphere caught in contemplation Junkie in love with intoxication Me and death share a name, no relation Have you ever felt so misshaped You ain't alone You were persuasive [Outro] I keep wondering what is the combination I keep looking up at constellations Philosphere caught in contemplation Junkie in love with intoxication Me and death share a name, no relation I keep wondering what is the combination I keep looking up at constellations Philosphere caught in contemplation Junkie in love with intoxication Me and death share a name, no relation Have you ever felt so misshaped You ain't alone You were persuasive