I walk down the road solo Hold loner throne No friends Got wet on my neck Where it taers open every time they try to stretch my spine try to pick me up and shake me out rob me of my life my mind self respect every dime every ounce Every penny every second of motherfuckin time They aint give me no respect no mental connect just a homeless wretch donating his life to phoney friends and forging connections? nope just digging more dead fucking ends The drug addict life Is one filled with pain Get crippled by shame Loose memory in great black stretches of suffering where you kept your old friends but might remember your name no worries now doe naw shit outta luck to keep your mind required that about yourself you actually act like you give a fuck but fuck this bed i made it sick its time to get this mattress flipped and throw myself right in the wash get clean and then scram get fuckin lost But clean turned out worse the fear the shame the never a thing no far coin purse just cold beans and water no tv no loving comments from pa pa Cause now youre steady rocking agoraphobia Cant make a friend - your brains are noodled lazagna And question if you even want to mend No clue whats next around that bend so you sit alone and you think fuck. is this gonna be forever? is it gonna get worse? GET THE FUCK OUT OF YOUR HEAD WILLIAM The fear starts to grow Build Yea it gets pretty fuckin nasty You want to turn the wheel But what the fuck When did you get in the back seat The cars a bit fucked So's the road And youre not even checking if theres a driver bro You alright? Whats in your head We wouldnt want to have you free and dancing with the dead So lock the door And shut your heart Wait for the macabe mariachi band to start They always know the song to play When you need to bring some Fuckin pain Come on down Yea Gather round Come see the grand shit show finale There's sure to be lofs to do and see Plenty to fill your heart with glee And end to leave you with a mark A memento Reminder A scar from your visit here with me in the dark The stark place of fear The place i should never have went to The hole inside every living heart Its in yours too Its been with you since the start A place that holds it all together like glue A box A place of safety Of darkness Of blissfull ignorance Pandoras box is real Its in you Its in me Its the thing the traumas build cathedrals off tirelessly Its the darkness we all feel The sick The rot The scab that can no longer bleed These are just some of my thoughts I appreciate you giving me your brain Try not to let it bring you down Dont want to spread this shitty pain I just heard it from a friend i can call a trusted one now To take all this shit And put in the page
