Crowd’s Not Switch

[Verse 1] When you said, “it’s not a big deal” It hit me hard You meant to help me But I fell apart My panic’s not a switch I can turn off A crowd got too close And my whole body lost [Pre-Chorus] I was not choosing this I was not being strong I was drowning in the noise Way before you came along And when I heard that line I felt so small Guilty in my skin Ashamed at all [Chorus] If I’m here you should be (you should be) I need you to believe me If I’m here you should be (you should be) Not push me to breathe easy My body went to war I couldn’t stand tall If I’m here you should be Just hold me through it all [Verse 2] The room got way too big Too many eyes I ran for the door With tears in my eyes Staff hands on my shoulders Lifted me out I hated every second I hated the doubt I did not ruin the day I did not fail My nervous system broke And I could not trail [Pre-Chorus] I need support, not pressure I need “I get it” now Not a test of how much pain I can somehow wear down And hearing you mock it Cuts me deep You say that you love me Then ask if I’m okay [Chorus] If I’m here you should be (you should be) I need you to believe me If I’m here you should be (you should be) Not push me to breathe easy My body went to war I couldn’t stand tall If I’m here you should be Just hold me through it all [Bridge] I fell on my knees I felt the floor I needed grace Not a score Don’t call it small Don’t call it fine When I’m in that dark Just stay by my side [Final Chorus] If I’m here you should be (you should be) I need you to believe me If I’m here you should be (you should be) Not push me to breathe easy My body went to war I couldn’t stand tall If I’m here you should be Just hold me through it all If I’m here you should be (you should be) Hear me when I’m shaking If I’m here you should be (you should be) Love me without breaking