Rushy... Rushy... Rush! I been searchin fo that spark, but my lighters out of fluid Love's a foreign language, I speak pain perfect Rush the bruised, hearts a museum with no visitors Isolation a tenant, signed a lease on all my limiters Mirror talkin back, said, "Boy, u look familiar" I said, "Thats cus Im the father u never had— !" Im jus searchin fo that love I never got when I was Back when my lungs was heavy, the sky was a rust Now Im lustin fo trust, but the list of the cursed Is alphabetized, indexed—my name 1st, of course I aint losin—Im lost with, mappin the cost Of a soul dipped in acid, a ghost in a host Givin into the vice, but Im twice as the boss— Dice roll loaded, still bet on the loss Why am I lost? the script got crossed Im dissectin the mission, but missin the missionary— Thought love was a ritual, turned out its heresy All the insecurities Im blessed with? Blessed curse that burns in the verse I said it with validity, but the valids dont vote Im defeated by weather, emotionally broke Every storm got a name—mine’s called Smoke— Blowin thru seasons, no leaves on the oak Jus choked on the oath I made—swore I’d revoke The pain… but the record kept playin my note Like a siren in reverse, pulled into the throat Now Im speakin to figments—is this therapy or folk? Soul-searchin, but my souls in the dope Immersed in the agony Evasive, wish I wasn’t isolated— I thought I wanted friends, but they slide like slime Im gettin close to insanity, but insane is sublime— Cus only the mad see the world in prime Im lightnin, I strike The pain is supersonic, it bites Seriously invested, Im resurrectin the rights Of a soul that was executed by nights without lights Demons pull up like, "Ride or die?", I say, Im drivin Steerin thru the storm with a heart thats barely livin but the storm in me… Love was never given… so I invented a deity Im jus searchin fo that rush, I never got when I was— Im at the end, got the reaper blowin hush in my ear All these years of isolation? Thats a vocation in pain life isnt fair So do what u can Cus nobody cares I pray that u live without fear n u never think u in need of materials jus to complete u Cus that is the truth Dont be dependent on things that can disappear when u need em the most Rushy... Rushy... Rush!
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