[Intro] Keep the lights on Keep the door locked Keep the numbers in the black If it breaks, I fix it If it hurts, I hide it No one needs to see the cracks [Verse 1] Mom says, "Go be sixteen" Like sixteen pays the rent Like I don't know every warning Every dollar that we spent Shoes beside the doorway Bills underneath my books I learned young that every problem Has a pattern if you look So give me wires, give me numbers Give me something I can solve Give me anything but standing there And watching it dissolve [Pre-Chorus] I can find the fault I can make it run Tell me what you need I'll get it done Just don't ask me What I need from you [Chorus] If I stop being useful Would you still want me here? If I can't fix what's broken If I can't make it disappear If my hands come up empty If the answer isn't clear If I stop being useful Would you still want me here? Would you still want me here? [Verse 2] They paid me more at thirteen Than Mom made in a week Just to open little doorways Just to find what others couldn't see No blood upon my fingers No gun against my chest Just eight quiet minutes And I did what I did best Cameras blind Locks undone Panic button wouldn't run I watched the signals screaming While they told me, "Job well done" [Pre-Chorus] I found the fault I made it run I gave them what they needed Look what I'd become Don't tell me I was just a kid [Chorus] If I stop being useful Would you still want me here? If I can't fix what's broken If I can't make it disappear If my hands come up empty If the answer isn't clear If I stop being useful Would you still want me here? Would you still want me here? [Verse 3] Now I wear another mask But I kept the same old name Took the word they gave me And I'm trying to make it change I watch the way you move One time, two times, now I know Every strike and every footstep Every place your body goes I can fight just like you For a minute, maybe two My head knows every motion My bones don't always do So I tear another muscle And I stagger to my feet Because somebody is counting on me And counting feels like need [Pre-Chorus] I know the pattern I know the cost If I calculate it perfectly Maybe nobody gets lost Maybe this time Nobody gets lost [Chorus] If I stop being useful Would you still want me here? If I can't fix what's broken If I can't make it disappear If I'm tired, if I'm useless If I'm angry, if I'm scared If I stop being useful Would you still want me there? Would you still want me there? [Bridge] I don't know how to ask for help I know how to make a plan I don't know how to need someone I know how to understand Circuits Locks Numbers Routes Angles Patterns Codes Truths Everything has an answer Everything has a key So why can't I figure out Why you'd stay for me? [Breakdown] Not Cipher Not the hacker Not the weapon Not the kid who knows the way Not the fixer Not the lookout Not the debt that I can pay Not your backup Not your answer Not the smartest in the room If I give you nothing useful— Is Jonah still enough for you? [Final Chorus] If I stop being useful Would you still want me here? When there's nothing left to offer And I've got nothing left to repair If you see what I have done And all the things I couldn't save If I stop being useful Would you ask me still to stay? If I stop being useful If I finally let you near Would you look at me and tell me "You don't have to earn your place here" [Outro] Keep the lights on Leave the door unlocked Maybe I can come back Empty hands No answers And you still want me here
