[Verse 1] I woke up tired again At the edge of my own bed Cold sweat on my face Still carrying last night’s dread The sink was full of blood Dishes stacked like bad advice I cut my hand on glass And learned my anger twice [Pre-Chorus] You said, “Just calm down” Like that ever made it bend I swallowed the whole room And let it burn from end to end My throat went sharp with grit My chest kept pounding hard I tried to hold the day But every minute failed [Chorus] I am ash in my hands I am smoke in my head I built a little home Then watched it sink beneath You keep asking for peace I keep handing you wreckage I am ash in my hands I am ash in my heart [Verse 2] The rent was due by noon The light was cut again I stared at my reflection Then I looked away from it The voicemail stayed unread The screen lit up my shame Everybody moves ahead While I’m still down again [Pre-Chorus] You said, “Just calm down” Like that ever made it bend I swallowed the whole room And let it burn from end to end My throat went sharp with grit My chest kept pounding hard I tried to hold the day But every minute failed [Chorus] I am ash in my hands I am smoke in my head I built a little home Then watched it sink beneath You keep asking for peace I keep handing you wreckage I am ash in my hands I am ash in my heart [Bridge] If I go quiet now It’s not because I’m fine It’s just the part of me That still believes in time But time has bruised myself And carved me into rifts So I keep breaking clean Before the next thing shifts [Final Chorus] I am ash in my hands I am smoke in my head I built a little home Then watched it sink beneath You keep asking for peace I keep handing you wreckage I am ash in my hands I am ash in my heart
