Left cigarette burns and scars, in the outline of my shattered heart Made promises you never planned to keep, just to have me close while it was her name you whispered in your sleep So I'm pulling the thread, cutting the tension, watching the unraveling of what was before I'd fallen apart Cleared out my closet and found the hoodie you gave me, back when I believed Believed you when you said I love you, and I didn't fear what your hands might do The moment before the last first time, and the last good bye And everything that revealed the real you to a trembling, suffering me I thought I'd finally reached the end I was scrambling for an type of relief I looked in the crowd and screamed out for a friend But was told to grow up take responsibility, you don't deserve to grieve Felt betrayed and pressured to cave and to bend Turned to methods that were manic in my panic to cope with the fading Contemplated leaving it all behind then I clinged to every little thing Like I would blow away in the wind Tell our circle, homewrecker but my home was recked all for her Can't help but feel like a back up or after thought, my tears were sold and bought Like a noose to my future, unlearning all the habits that had always left me hurt Couldn't breathe and had no where to go, wasn't ready to face a court, my support system was not their to support And the people that judged my choices, but gave no solution or no cure for the voices Mission abort, my reality distort, because racking up love became your sport I thought I'd finally reached the end I was scrambling for an type of relief I looked in the crowd and screamed out for a friend But was told to grow up take responsibility, you don't deserve to grieve Felt betrayed and pressured to cave and to bend Turned to methods that were manic in my panic to cope with the fading Contemplated leaving it all behind then I clinged to every little thing Like I would blow away in the wind I wonder if heaven would take me Because I've already been through hell on earth Please would someone hold me I think I might be cursed ... Held me above water when I gave up swimming I think someone might be able to love me Is this the end, the end Or is it just the backstory to the beginning So I'll be the bigger person And refuse to blow away in the wind I thought I'd finally reached the end I was scrambling for an type of relief I looked in the crowd and screamed out for a friend But was told to grow up take responsibility, you don't deserve to grieve Felt betrayed and pressured to cave and to bend Turned to methods that were manic in my panic to cope with the fading Contemplated leaving it all behind then I clinged to every little thing Like I would blow away in the wind Left cigarette burns and scars, in the outline of my shattered heart I refuse to blow away I refuse to blow away I refuse to blow away In The wind
