Trust

Out of time I Stepped out of line I got No alibi No where to go No peace of mind My skin is cold Feel dead inside It's getting old This pain inside It constantly Decays my mind You broke me Down And made me sick You took my air And Breathed it in You took my trust And you destroyed it. Am I just another victim? Was I just another pawn? cause everything you've given I made sure that it's gone when I didn't have my vision You went and held me for so long Now all of my ambition Has gone and turned into a fog Cant sleep In my bed Hands shake cause I bled Mind state is in debt Not safe in my head So I stay out of mind And im paying price For the path of the knife Cause I hate every sight So I stray from the light And I pray that I might Be okay so I fight But the memories continue To sink into my skin I wish that I could hate you But then I would begin To lose another piece of me Lose another night of sleep To give into it peacefully To trust when I cant possibly Trust again. Cause that trust is dead So I lie instead In the lions den When im lying still I sink to depths I start to fill With mental debts That I cannot pay So I wallow in This constant pain I followed you You took away My choice to move My choice to stay Now i'm consumed By the price I paid. My love Was turned into a weapon My trust Was just another lesson I guess I gotta keep on guessing Regression Regret When I trusted too much Now i guess that i'm destined to Hide all that I was. My love Was turned into a weapon My trust Was just another lesson I guess I gotta keep on guessing I guess I won't trust another person They say to keep your friends close And your enemies closer So I Guess I should have known What was inside of your holster You crawled into my chest Then you shot up my heart When I was at my best You decided to start Then I started to fade And I froze from the fear When I thought I was safe You defiled me there When I screamed out in pain You prodded through tears I couldn't escape So instead I Regressed To a place that I made To deal with the stress. I was a shell for myself You put my restraint on a shelf I could have avoided this hell And now im ashamed of myself Cause I cant explain what I felt. We bonded like brothers From the laughs that we shared And the secrets we muttered Looked at my past and said that you cared And now I continue to suffer Cause i don't think there's another Person who's cared less about me And to me that's astounding Cause the black eyes and poundings From my past reminds me That my trust betrays me But I let my guard down And I was caught With my pants down Now I cant stand How Much of me I let you take. My love Was turned into a weapon My trust Was just another lesson I guess I gotta keep on guessing Regression Regret When I trusted too much Now i guess that i'm destined to Hide all that I was. My trust Was just another lesson I guess I gotta keep on guessing I guess I won't trust another person