[intro] Dear God I want to ask you a question why did I go through all this hell is it so you can make me a better father then my own dad I was just wondering why Sign by Matthew [Opening verse] sitting up late crying alone wondering why my dad left me and my mother not understanding why this pain hit so hard slowing going mad thinking I was to blame why he left us behind not knowing it was his doing his choice to make us suffer holding on hope one day he'll come back to us and we'll be a happy family again [chours hook] hey daddy how can you look in your kids eyes and walk away hey daddy how can you say you'll be right back and then disappear in my life and never showing up again hey daddy how can you act like a man knowing you walk away from your responsibilities hey daddy Hey daddy [verse] man growing up I look up to you do you know how this hurt knowing I pray each day for you to be back in my life so I can stop feeling left out seeing all my other friends with their dad's on the playground playing around wondering why I can't have something like that in my life instead going through hell each day being called a retard or a dumbass or a failure well do you know my Pain Motherfucker! [Pre-Chorus hook] Dear God I want to ask you a question why did I go through all this hell is it so you can make me a better father then my own dad I was just wondering why Sign by Matthew [chours Hook] hey daddy how can you look in your kids eyes and walk away hey daddy how can you say you'll be right back and then disappear in my life and never showing up again hey daddy how can you act like a man knowing you walk away from your responsibilities hey daddy Hey daddy [verse 2] going through my whole life feel depress and numbness not knowing there will be any end to this nightmare crying alone knowing I can't take it anymore so I start to staying to myself knowing if I reach out talk about my feelings in my family they will send me to therapy and and have a conversation with someone that will give me pills instead helping me fix my problem so I kept myself playing video games each day I got with my friends that gave me somewhat joy in my life at the time man miss those time [Pre-Chorus hook] going through life with all this pain God can you see me God can you hear me why am I feel so alone why did I hate you when I was younger lord please forgive me I let this pain guide me in my younger life time oh God please forgive me now I see now oh God now I know why you save me that day [verse 3] letting this pain leading me on this path of destruction I grab my belt rap it around my throat about to end all that night in my room I couldn't deal with all that fucking pain in my heart I got up on my chair tie it up good and tight then not thinking I walk off the chair starting to choke slowly dying accepting my life slipping away and then I felt someone lifting me up back on that chair and then noticed there was no one in that room with me it freak me out so strongly I take off that fucking belt around my throat and then I got on my knees and then I started to pray [Pre-Chorus hook] dear God I want to ask you a question why did you save me that day why did you let me live is it because one day I'll be a better father then my dad I was just wondering why Sign by Matthew [chours hook] hey daddy how can you look in your kids eyes and walk away hey daddy how can you say you'll be right back and then disappear in my life and never showing up again hey daddy how can you act like a man knowing you walk away from your responsibilities hey daddy Hey daddy [Outro chours] thank you God for loving me as your son when my own dad who was on earth throw me aside I'm trying to make you Proud each day but know I'm trying even on days I fall just please Lord don't forget about me Amen Sign by Matthew Sign by Matthew
