the Diary of DJ doctor love this is a song about my son Junior my baby my first born as he's gotten older he's dealing with the reality of marriage and raising kids the economy friends and work and haters when he was a child small I his father and mother at one time deeply in love back in the 80s and 90 but as the years moved online into the 90s and also as the relationship near the fifth season throughout 8th season arguments and fighting it was normal back then because in a man's house a lot of lip service is not required out there brother got to go out there in the system while you at home raising our child so he knows what it is to have a mother and as a child I'm sure he looked at me with this thing sometime because every boy loves their mama more than their daddy whether he's a good daddy or a bad daddy or just doing the best he knows how making sure everybody's good but it ain't always easy but as a child you never understand to become a man back in the day you know it's like hey it was a real stuff going on no marriage counseling and like my mama used to say don't never put them people in your business always try to handle yourself because you never want to end up in court over family personal matters to death do you part on your contract play your role I mean if you know you know I mean women will put you in the mix also back in the day but now he's grown he he once told me that he said I don't know nobody like you now I understand that it mean like something wrong with you that are you crazy I also took it as a compliment because I knew one day he will understand why so when you got older I told him I said you remember that time you told me you didn't know nobody like me I should look in the mirror now he tells me one day you know that I'm going to erase generational curses you know like the family was cursed or something just because you know I'm saying we we have to deal with our issues in the hood it's you know it's like you're not immune from it just because you can go live in the suburbs having a better life for your kids than you had not realizing them kids can get on your nerves and when you try to handle it you might be facing child abuse charges and definitely you going to be facing the mother cuz they don't want you to do nothing to them boys and it's enough to make a man start drinking and doing drugs and chasing hoes cuz he can't get no peace and control in his house and now he sees why I was like I was but he never wanted to grow up to be me but he now understands when he has his conversation I guess I'm too much like you like I cursed him no you be a mother f****** man that's what you did you try to run your house so you know you trying to save your boys that are getting killed in the streets every day that's your job as a parent but at the same time there's that Great Divide and so he's in purgatory about whether it's not it's him and if he needs counseling anger management and that's why I called me you know but just so happened I didn't answer the phone cuz he told me he was erased generational curses and that it was a whole different level of coat of arms the new generation just kick the old generation to the side all that struggle down the drain because they not structured to follow the chain of command and always on there your elders and listen to what they tell you no matter how old you get no matter how much money you got how much you got that turned up listen to your Elder they get old for no reason that sometimes you know you got to be real with people cuz if you don't they going to take advantage of you but when they see you intelligence and you speak with authority or like a king because you are well versed and they were not expecting you to be knowledgeable that those them off their grind. and the only reason I say that is because most people don't even use their brains anymore they just rely on the artificial intelligence chat box I mean people can't even write their names and curse anymore they damn near got to put an X down real talk but this is just a story between a man and his son look he's 40 years old he on his own when it come to him his wife and his kids cuz the boys are like 14 and 18 now and the youngest one you know he he got the pimp and blood I can't even say nothing cuz I mean I'm sure whatever he's doing to his daddy I did it to my mother she was always haven't talked to somebody about my ass how can I throughout the years before they can look in your eyes cuz if you ain't got on the trained up by there is game over as long as they got Mama wrapped around their finger but funny how the tables turn from generational curse to Daddy it's your fault cuz I'm just like you Ninja please you 40 years old been on your own since you were 18 Paving your own Road it's just that them decades make you realize when you was a child why your daddy was crazy and as far as the generation curses go you don't like it change your name but that ain't going to change the game
