[Track 22: Self-Sabotage] [Intro] (Soft glow of an iPhone screen, heavy breathing, 4 AM) My exes turned my heart into a fucking graveyard. Lied to my face, cheated in my bed, broke every piece of me. So now I look at a loyal man... and I just wait for the trap. I’m about to ruin something good. Watch me. [Verse 1] Scarred up from my past, yeah I came with baggage Old n_gga fucked me up, turned me to a savage Kept a side bitch dripping in the same Chanel coat Now every time a n_gga quiet, got a knife to his throat Sitting up at 4 AM, sweating through silk Overthinking every word, crying over spilt milk You sleeping like a baby with your arm around my waist But my brain is running wild, heart beating in a race Trauma got a chokehold, ghosts in my head Telling me you're lying, fucking bitches in my bed I don't know how to love without waiting for the crash So I grab your fucking phone, ready to burn it to ash [Pre-Chorus] I’m damaged, I’m broken, my trust is in the dirt Hurt people hurt people, so I hit before I’m hurt You see a queen in Mugler, but under all the glass I’m just a paranoid bitch about to ruin what we have [Chorus] Yeah, I’m self-destructing, wrecking my own home! Going fucking crazy while I dig inside your phone! Overthinking every second, waiting for a lie Building up a fantasy that’s making me cry You’re loyal as fuck, but I’m built for war Self-sabotage, slamming down the penthouse door Yeah, I’m self-destructing, red flags in my veins Taking a good man and drowning him in pain [Verse 2] Lift your thumb to the glass, light up the screen Diving in your DMs, looking for a scene Checking your location, checking cash app tags Searching for a whore, looking for her bags And what do I find? Not a single damn thing. Just a text to your mom and a photo of a ring. Drafts full of love notes written out for me No secret folders, no hidden lock and key. You’re loyal... you’re clean... you’re faithful to the core. And finding out you’re innocent just terrifies me more! 'Cause if you ain't the villain, then the problem is my mind I’m toxicity personified, leaving love behind [Pre-Chorus] I’m damaged, I’m broken, my trust is in the dirt Hurt people hurt people, so I hit before I’m hurt You see a queen in Mugler, but under all the glass I’m just a paranoid bitch about to ruin what we have [Chorus] Yeah, I’m self-destructing, wrecking my own home! Going fucking crazy while I dig inside your phone! Overthinking every second, waiting for a lie Building up a fantasy that’s making me cry You’re loyal as fuck, but I’m built for war Self-sabotage, slamming down the penthouse door Yeah, I’m self-destructing, red flags in my veins Taking a good man and drowning him in pain [Bridge] So I wake your ass up, climbing on your chest Riding you aggressive, no time for you to rest Fucking you with anger 'cause I’m guilty in my head Using dirty sex just to mask the tears I shed "Why you looking at me crazy?" you ask me real soft While I’m screaming in your face, trying to turn you off Pushing you away 'cause I’m scared to let you in Turning pure love into a toxic fucking sin Audemars on my wrist, tears on my face I’m destroying this relationship without a fucking trace [Chorus] Yeah, I’m self-destructing, wrecking my own home! Going fucking crazy while I dig inside your phone! Overthinking every second, waiting for a lie Building up a fantasy that’s making me cry You’re loyal as fuck, but I’m built for war Self-sabotage, slamming down the penthouse door Yeah, I’m self-destructing, red flags in my veins Taking a good man and drowning him in pain [Outro] Phone put down. Zero lies found. You love me for real... And that's why I'm gonna break your heart before you break mine. Self-sabotage. (I'm sorry, baby)
