© 2025 Exidious — Melody/Lyrics SOCIALS Exidious · x.com/ExidiousMusic · exidious.pro/Spotify · exidious.pro/Soundcloud · exidious.pro/Deezer · exidious.pro/AppleMusic · exidious.pro/Tiktok · exidious.pro/Youtube "This track is highly personal My family has a "curse" a disease And my cousin just got hit with a confirmation she has it. Meaning she now has a finite date. And I am one of the few that did not get this "curse" and it feels, unfair. There is no cure, there is no fix" Lyrics... (Why her… why not me?) (Why her... why not me!) My mood: a downpour. (Fog in my chest...) Went to a funeral last Tuesday, had to pay my respects. She was there-- I caught the micro twitches (small... but real) No one else noticed, I did. I knew right then... (Same curse...) She’s got the disease that tore my bloodline thin; The one that burned my father out from the bones in. (Why her… why not me?) (Why her... why not me!) I'm the black sheep, the ghost... Didn’t fit. Didn’t try. Didn't do as told! Why am I standing here clean? (While she’s marked by fate) They had joy, they had light (it’s all been stripped away) She got the countdown now; the clock's in her chest. And I got... (guilt and unrest) I’ve got survivor’s guilt (still breathing…) Brain won’t shut the f-- off (keep screaming…) Why me!? (Why me...) Heart's on overload (overload... over, over) I’ve got survivor’s guilt (indefinitely...) They were better than me! (I know I'm not wrong) They were kinder and brighter, lived louder and better than most I stayed quieter, fading away... Now they’re the ones fading away! (Can't there be another way?) I’m still here... alive! What's the point of it when... They're the ones that didn't survive? When she's the one that won't? (Why her… why not me?) (Why her... why not me!) I’ve got survivor’s guilt (still breathing…) Brain won’t shut the f-- off (keep screaming…) Why me!? (Why me...) Heart's on overload (overload... over, over) I’ve got survivor’s guilt (indefinitely...) How do I survive Survivor's guilt? How is it fair? (She was there...) Same curse, same tell Tell me-- How is it fair?
