[Verse 1] I done left some hearts cracked, I can’t rewrite that Said sorry a hundred times, still can’t give time back So when something good came, I ain’t know how to hold it Keep lookin’ over my shoulder like somebody gon’ notice Like, “How he get peace after all that damage?” “How he get love when we left here abandoned?” That thought hit hard when she ridin’ beside me Almost feel wrong when I see her smile brightly I know there’s people that might see us together And wonder why I couldn’t give them this version forever That shit cut deep, ’cause I understand the question But ruining this won’t undo my transgressions I can’t make amends by makin’ myself bleed Can’t prove that I’m sorry by refusing what I need If the old me caused pain, let the new me bring peace I can carry what I learned without wearin’ the grief [Pre-Chorus] Maybe I don’t gotta lose every good thing Just to prove that I know what the bad did Maybe changing means somebody finally gets The man that all those lessons created [Chorus] Am I allowed to be happy? After all the hearts I broke in the past Am I allowed to let somebody love me And not feel guilty every time that we laugh? I know I left scars, I know I did damage I know some apologies can’t make it vanish But I can’t spend forever makin’ myself pay Maybe being better is the debt I repay Am I allowed to be happy? Yeah Maybe I’m allowed to be happy [Verse 2] She meet me where I’m at, never judge where I been I told her ’bout the losses, told her ’bout the sins Expected her to flinch, expected distance instead She looked me in my eyes like, “That ain’t who you is yet” And that scared me more than rejection ever could ’Cause when somebody love you right, you gotta stay good Can’t hide behind chaos, can’t blame being confused When somebody choosing you with nothing left to prove We moving kinda fast, but I wanted something real No games, no guessing, say exactly what we feel And I’m learning fast don’t mean destined to crash Long as we ain’t using love just to run from the past Still, sometimes guilt put its hand on my chest Tell me I don’t deserve when my life feel blessed But maybe this is what accountability means Not dying as the man that I used to be [Bridge] I can’t go backwards and love ’em better Can’t change old nights, can’t unsend letters Can’t give old versions what I learned too late But I can make sure I don’t repeat those mistakes And maybe somebody somewhere hates That another person gets the version they prayed for I understand that pain But I can’t become worse just to make it feel fair [Chorus] Am I allowed to be happy? After all the hearts I broke in the past Am I allowed to let somebody love me And not feel guilty every time that we laugh? I know I left scars, I know I did damage I know some apologies can’t make it vanish But I can’t spend forever makin’ myself pay Maybe being better is the debt I repay Am I allowed to be happy? Yeah Maybe I’m allowed to be happy [Verse 3] I used to think remorse meant stayin’ in hell Like if I healed too much, I forgave myself Like every good day was disrespect to the hurt So I kept throwin’ dirt on the man doing work Nah I remember every lesson, I just don’t live there I can own every failure without building a chair At the table of regret where I starve every night I can look back at darkness and still walk toward light So when she grab my hand, I ain’t pullin’ away I ain’t letting old mistakes steal another good day I’ll love with intention, be honest and present Turn every painful chapter into something worth learning I don’t need to be perfect, I just need to be true And give her what I promised when I say, “I choose you” My past made a mess, but my future ain’t trash I’m not honoring the hurt by repeating the past [Final Chorus] Yeah, I’m allowed to be happy Even knowing there are hearts that I broke I’m allowed to let somebody love me Without treating every blessing like a joke I know I left scars, I know I did damage And I’ll never pretend like it somehow just vanished But I won’t spend forever makin’ myself pay Being better is the debt I repay Yeah, I’m allowed to be happy I’m allowed to move on I can regret who I was And still love who I’ve become
