I don't like my pictures I... I never really did I always find something wrong every time I'm in it The angle? The lighting? yeah, I've used those poses before Same shit I just look tired yeah, it's been a long week It's been a long week? for the last six years man Say what you actually mean I'm writing my director's cut, of my inner demons they appear at any time, and for no fucking reason Rituals in my head, like a big ass haunting legion all I want right now, is being finally free man Am I okay? no Thanks for asking how polite hehe anyways I pick apart a tiny bit, until the picking turns to habit Call me self-aware, because it makes the damage valid I can tell you where it started, name the trigger, map the pattern and I know the diagnosis, still can't tell you what happened I don't need a therapy, I do it from my memory the worst copy of me, in perfect fucking clarity your compliment gets stripped, until it's just a little charity once again the demons laugh See? They all agree with me Hmm and when theres a harmless pause, I can easily weaponize it Catch a smirk inside your face, freeze the frame and analyze it Give me half a second silence, I'll invent a meaning, memorize it Nice response You rationalize it! Okay okay let's change another detail, maybe I'll hate me less sacrifice another me, for something easy to digest dare to do a little more, climb up to your success Then I look at what's remaining why the fuck's it just a mess? I change and I change why do I look like this why do I look so lusterless I pray and I pray tear another layer off I don't think I'll be enough Bullshit! Bullshit? I'm about to pull it Let me pull it off! don't, don't look at me I know what you see cut, cut cut the feed I don't wanna hear me speak pull the plug and rest in fucking piss! But make it this time! I can't I can't I can't stand this burning skin! I can fix this fix what? Me? me, me, me, me That's the problem Who will solve this? This is haunting Everything's falling falling falling I change and I change why do I look like this why do I look so lusterless why do I look so lusterless
