Fore | Casted Futures

I been living ahead of the second I’m in, every breath I begin is already behind Counting the minutes I haven’t received, trying to be what I’m not gonna find Mind in a place that I made in a rush, body still here but I’m… …drifting… …in time… Touching the moment but missing the feel, chasing a version I’m trying… …to define… Every decision I make is a maybe, built off a future that lives in my head I been rehearsing a life I don’t live while the one that I have… …goes quiet… …instead… Talking to days that ain’t even begun, losing the weight of the step that I’m on I keep on moving but nothing is moving, I’m here but I’m already gone If I just breathe… If I just stay… Maybe the moment Won’t… …slip away!! I don’t wanna live ahead of my life I just wanna feel what’s real inside Every time I reach, I lose my place I just wanna be here in the now… …today… I felt it forming before it was real, weight in the thought before weight in my hand Holding a future I can’t even touch while letting go… …of where… …I stand… I hear my name but it sounds far away, like I’m calling from somewhere behind I try to hold onto something that’s real but it slips every time… …that I try!! I was running ahead of the breath in my chest Every step felt right but it pulled me from rest Every line I aligned was a line I outpaced Every move I would make put me… …out of my place I was chasing a version that stayed just ahead Every second I gained left me further misled I was moving so fast I was losing the ground Now I hear it in me as it’s… …calling me down I don’t wanna live ahead of my life I just wanna feel what’s real inside Every time I reach, I lose my place I just wanna be here in the now… today Stay with me… Right here… …today!!!