pLyrics: [Intro, Detuned clean guitar, Distant feedback] I thought it was over I thought we killed this thing Then another silence And I heard the old curse breathe again [Verse 1, Fenix, Fragile close-mic vocal] Every time I love somebody I start waiting for goodbye Even when I'm fucking happy there's a warning in my mind I thought I'd finally beaten it, thought fear had lost its name Then loneliness came crawling back and everything felt the same Another quiet phone, another night inside my room Another old prediction telling me that love is doomed I know a string of heartbreaks doesn't write my destiny But depression makes that lie sound way too fucking real to me [Pre-Chorus, Dissonant guitars building] It came back That voice inside my head It came back Repeating everything I dread [Chorus, Huge downtuned guitars, Cracked vocal] The curse came back Or maybe that's just what heartbreak says When I'm lonely as fuck And every goodbye lives inside my head I want the pain to end I want this suffering gone I wanna find the right one someday And finally make love last long The curse came back But I won't let it write my ending [Post-Chorus, Gang vocals] Came back Came back I thought that shit was dead Came back Came back Now it's screaming in my head [Verse 2, Dirty bass, Sparse live drums] I just wanna love somebody without counting down the days Without wondering when forever turns around and walks away I wanna keep the girl I love and know she wants to stay Not because she's trapped beside me, but because we choose each other every day I want stupid little mornings, late-night messages and calls Someone who knows the real me when I finally drop the walls I'm tired of every ending turning into evidence That I'm somehow fucking cursed instead of hurt by circumstance [Pre-Chorus, Fenix, Trembling vocal] I'm lonely I'm tired I'm sick of fighting ghosts But five bad endings don't decide Who I'll love the most [Chorus, Explosive guitars, Double vocal] The curse came back Or maybe that's just what heartbreak says When I'm lonely as fuck And every goodbye lives inside my head I want the pain to end I want this suffering gone I wanna find the right one someday And finally make love last long The curse came back But I won't let it write my ending [Break, Half-time drums, Crushing guitars] I WANT THE PAIN TO FUCKING END NOT MY LIFE NOT MY STORY JUST THIS WEIGHT INSIDE MY CHEST THAT KEEPS TELLING ME LOVE ALWAYS LEAVES I'M SICK OF THE CURSE SICK OF THE FEAR SICK OF FEELING LIKE EVERYONE DISAPPEARS [Breakdown, Fenix, Raw anguished vocal] I JUST WANT SOMEBODY WHO CHOOSES ME BACK SOMEBODY I CAN LOVE WITHOUT WAITING FOR THE CRACK NO MORE COUNTING BREAKUPS NO MORE CALLING MYSELF CURSED I'M FUCKING HURTING NOW BUT HURTING ISN'T FOREVER [Bridge, Bare piano, Fenix, Exhausted cracked vocal] Tonight I'm lonely Tonight I'm depressed Tonight every memory is sitting heavy in my chest And when my thoughts get too loud, I won't disappear inside I'll tell somebody I trust that I'm having a brutal night Maybe the right person isn't something I can force or chase Maybe love can take its time and still eventually find its place I don't need every answer before tomorrow comes I just need to make it through tonight and see another sun [Build, Drums rising, Layered vocals] Not a curse Just a fear Not forever Just right here One more night One more dawn The pain can end And I can carry on [Final Chorus, Massive guitars, Fenix, Raw soaring vocal] THE CURSE CAME BACK But it doesn't get to own my name I'm lonely as fuck But loneliness and destiny aren't the same I want the pain to end And someday I want love that stays Someone I choose who chooses me Through ordinary nights and complicated days The curse came back But this time I know what it is A broken heart predicting forever From the pain I'm living in [Final Post-Chorus, Gang vocals, Guitars ringing] Not forever Not forever This pain isn't forever Not a curse Not a curse My future isn't cursed [Outro, Solo piano, Fenix, Natural exhausted vocal] I really thought that fear was gone for good Maybe it isn't gone yet Maybe healing isn't that simple But I know what I actually want to end The pain The loneliness The fear that everybody I love has to leave Not me So if tonight gets too heavy I'm telling somebody I'm not carrying it alone And someday I still hope I find someone Who chooses me And keeps choosing me Until then One night at a time [End]
