[Verse 1] I been scrollin’ through my soul like a feed, numb thumb Same screen, same scene, same cheap hit, rerun Hit up bodies like a bottle when the thirst come But when the morning hit I’m lookin’ at a stranger in the mirror I don’t trust, huh Heart cold, but my phone stay burnin’ Every ding just a promise I keep turnin’ Tell ’em “yeah, I’m good,” keep performin’ But my chest got a sinkhole Smile on the surface, under that, I’m stormin’ [Pre-Chorus] Everybody see the mask, they don’t see me crackin’ They don’t see the sheets, just the stories I’m actin’ Face look calm, but my pulse stay frantic I been prayin’ for a stop Instead I double back in [Chorus] I’m not okay But they all think I’m cool, I’m straight They don’t see I’m breakin’ in the dark, backstage This lust eat me alive, yeah, it carve my face 24/7 in the mood I just want some release before I break [Verse 2] Late night links, I don’t even learn names All I know is the route, all I know is the shame Whole life on silent, but my flesh on flame I keep runnin’ from myself End up right back in the same old frame Say I’ll change, but the urge talk louder Say it’s love, but it feel like powder Quick rush, then the crash come sour I got ghosts in my bed Can’t scrub off the guilt in the shower Mind say chill, but my hands don’t listen Whole body wired, my soul gone missin’ Lookin’ for a high, find a deeper prison I ain’t lookin’ for a halo I’m just beggin’ for a cut to this signal, this friction [Pre-Chorus] Everybody see the jokes, they don’t see me sweatin’ They don’t hear the “stop” underneath me flexin’ Eyes stay low, but my brain keep beggin’ “Can I get one night Where this hunger ain’t wreckin’?” [Chorus] [Bridge] [low vocal register] How many hearts I gotta touch just to feel mine? How many sins I gotta stack just to kill time? Screen light glow, but I’m blind, I’m blind I been prayin’ for a “no” Mouth still say “slide” [whispered vocals] I’m not okay Say it under breath like a code I can’t share If they saw the fight in my head, would they care? Or would they laugh when I say, “I’m scared”? [Chorus]
