Smoke & Mercy” (Southern soul Americana / smoky female vocal / raw live band feel) Verse 1 everybody called me crazyLike they couldn’t hear the pain They just saw the fire burning’ Never asked about the flame I laughed too loud at every party Stayed too long and drank too much Yeah I wore chaos like diamondsJust to feel somebody’s touch And I knew when people used me Lord, I always knew the score. I just figured if they stole from meMaybe they needed it more Pre-Chorus They mistook my survival For who I really am Chorus‘ Cause I made ugly choices I never became an ugly soul There’s a difference between lost and evil And baby, I’ve always known I’ve danced with pills and strangers And nights I can’t recall But my heart still breaks for people And I think that says it all Yeah the smoke ain’t who I am It’s just how I learned to cope They mistook my survival For the woman in my soul Verse 2 There were seasons I went missing Even standin’ in plain sight Smilin’ in a crowded room While drownin’ every night And God, the quiet scared me When the chaos finally left Like if I stopped runnin’ long enough I’d have to meet myself But there’s a woman in the silence now Soft-eyed, bruised, but strong And for the first time in forever I don’t think she’s wrong Pre-Chorus Turns out bein’ wounded Ain’t the same as bein’ bad Chorus‘ Cause I made ugly choices I never became an ugly soul There’s a difference between lost and evil And baby, I’ve always known I’ve loved too hard and stayed too long And let some wolves inside But mercy’s still alive in me After every storm survived Yeah the smoke ain’t who I am It’s just where I used to hide They mistook my survival for the woman deep inside Bridge So if you only knew me By my worst nights in the dark You never really knew me You just memorized my scars And the woman I was becoming Kept breathing underneath All the noise All the whiskey All the people leaving me Final Chorus Yeah I made ugly choices But my soul survived them all And these days I sit in silence Withou waiting for the fall There’s still a little wild in me Maybe there always will be But the woman underneath the wreckageIs finally free Outro Now the house don’t shake like thunder No strangers callin’ my phone Just me and my reflection And for once…I don’t wanna leave her alone
