I thought I saw you, baby. I thought I saw you. I said your name; the air put on A face it couldn’t keep. It held for half a second, Then fell apart on me. Maybe you meant the words you said. Maybe I supplied the rest: A little maybe in your mouth, A lifetime in my chest. I thought I saw you, baby. I thought I knew you well. I built a life between your words And couldn’t hear myself. I wake up every day, Thinking this is gonna be my day. Some mornings I don’t want to wake And find you’ve left again. I keep my eyes shut one more breath Like that could make the pain go away. I wake up every day. Is it ever gonna be my day? Get up. Give me a minute. Minute’s gone. I’m still in it. Still in it to win it? I kept trying to win you. What did you lose? The parts of me I knew. There’s work to do. It won’t bring my life back. I know. I drew the edges you left blank The way I wanted to. Now I can’t tell which lines were yours Or which I drew on you. I have a hundred things to make. None of them will make you stay. I want to hear what I sound like When I stop calling your name. Your name was taking up the air I needed for my own. I said it till the sound wore thin And even I felt gone. Now all the words I swallowed Catch and scrape across my teeth. They don’t come out like promises; They sound a lot like me. I look into the mirror; I let the picture stay. The one I kept looking past Looks back at me today. What we had can keep its years. I won’t take back the good. Maybe you never saw me The way I hoped you would. I thought I was the one who lost. I thought you got away. You lost someone who chose you, And I’m choosing me today. I thought I saw you, baby. I thought you’d seen me too. Today I see the man I missed While I was missing you. I wake up every day, Still asking, “Is it gonna be my day?” There’s more to me than missing you; I’ve got a voice I mean to use. I won’t stop trying. I won’t, won’t stop trying. I won’t stop trying. Some days that’s all I do. Cause I want to see what I can do. I wake up every day. Maybe today’s gonna be my day. Today's gonna be my day Every day’s gonna be my day.
