(Verse 1) I walk in the room like I’m fine — Shoulders back, fake grin, “I’m doin’ just fine” But inside, my breath is tight, heart racin’ Mind runnin’ laps, self-doubt’s still chasin’ Every glance feel like a microscope lens Every silence a trigger, every smile just pretends I rehearse every line like a Broadway role But my throat dry as truth when the nerves take hold I blend in like background noise in a loud café Laugh on cue, nod like I got somethin’ to say But my hands sweat bullets, my thoughts misbehave And the small talk feel like I’m diggin’ my grave I master the art of the eye contact game Two seconds in, then glance away in shame Yeah, I wear it well — this mask of ease But inside, I'm beggin' for a moment of peace (Hook – whispered confession) Nobody knows how deep it goes I smile while my whole damn system overloads Nobody sees what’s underneath The charm, the laughs — all stitched with grief Nobody knows, but maybe that’s best They see calm waters, never the unrest Nobody knows what I survive each day I just play my part and hide the decay (Verse 2) They call me quiet, mysterious, cool But silence ain't style — it's survival rule I dodge crowds like potholes, fake phone calls Pretend to scroll just to build up walls In a world that applauds the loud and bold I’m stuck in freeze mode, heart ice cold Wanna speak up but my tongue folds shut Wanna be real but I’m stuck in this rut They say “just relax,” like I ain’t tried that Like I ain’t stayed up rewiring my own combat Overthinkin' every word I said at lunch Overanalyzin’ a smile like a knockout punch I can make a joke, I can hold the room But later I replay it all alone in my gloom I survive in shadows, I function on edge Livin’ in a house with no ledge, no pledge (Hook – intensified) Nobody knows how loud it screams Behind a still face, beneath my dreams Nobody sees what I abort each night Plans, texts, love — just to feel alright Nobody knows, I’m a ghost in the crowd A thunderstorm soul that never gets loud Nobody knows the war I wage Smilin’ like peace while I burn backstage (Bridge – slowed down, melodic) And I envy the ones who float through the room While I drown in the pressure just tryin’ to bloom I watch from the corners, I study the scripts But my confidence broke, keeps slippin’ through rips I got whole speeches I’ll never recite Whole versions of me that hide from the light But maybe, just maybe, someday I’ll say What’s buried in me... in an honest way (Final Hook – diary entry tone) Nobody knows, but I still show up In spite of the fear, I still pour my cup Nobody knows, but I try each time To breathe through the panic, to climb, to shine Nobody knows, but I ain’t weak It takes strength to fake peace every day of the week Nobody knows — but now you do So if you feel this... I’m standin' with you
