Locked On

⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚=(((⊙ˍ⊙)))=⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛ I sit down just to check one thing, Three hours later I’m a different me. Forgot to blink, forgot to eat, My spine is shaped like anxiety. I said I’d rest, that was a lie, My brain just chose a hill to die. Tunnel vision, candle bright, Burning through another night. I don’t hear you say my name, I don’t feel the passing days, I am gentle, I am kind— Until I’m trapped inside my mind. ⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚=(((⊙ˍ⊙)))=⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛ If I stop, I might feel it, So I don’t, I just commit. Hyperfocus is my skill, And also how I pay my bills—"emotionally!" ⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚=(((⊙ˍ⊙)))=⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛ I lock in hard, I disappear, The world goes quiet, crystal clear. It feels like control, it feels like peace, It feels like I forgot to breathe. I’m doing great, I’m doing fine, Haven’t moved since half-past nine. Don’t worry ‘bout me, I’m alive— Just aggressively inside my mind. ⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚=(((⊙ˍ⊙)))=⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛ I tell myself “just one more try,” That’s how whole weekends say goodbye. My friends ask how I’ve been lately, I say “busy,” which means “barely.” Coffee cold, nails chewed raw, Still chasing something I never saw. Perfection’s such a funny joke, I laugh while feeling slightly broke. ⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚=(((⊙ˍ⊙)))=⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛ I feel important when I’m lost, Like chaos comes at half the cost. If I finish, what then? Guess I’ll start it all again. ⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚=(((⊙ˍ⊙)))=⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛ I lock in hard, I disappear, The world goes quiet, crystal clear. It feels like control, it feels like peace, It feels like I forgot to breathe. I’m doing great, I’m doing fine, Haven’t moved since half-past nine. Don’t worry ‘bout me, I’m alive— Just aggressively inside my mind. ⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚=(((⊙ˍ⊙)))=⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛ They say “relax,” I almost laugh, Like I didn’t Google how to nap. My brain’s a room with every light, All turned on at once, all night. It’s funny how I feel so strong While everything feels slightly wrong. I’m not okay, but that’s okay, I’ll schedule that for another day. ⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚=(((⊙ˍ⊙)))=⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛ I lock in hard, I disappear, Trade my feelings for a gear. I’m so focused I forget That I’m a person, not a bet. If this is peace, it’s oddly loud, If this is me, I’m kind of proud. Don’t save me, I’ll be fine— Just let me finish what’s on my mind. ⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚=(((⊙ˍ⊙)))=⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛⁚⁛