January Standing Still

[Intro, Sparse reverb guitar, Winter ambience] Snow don't fall like it used to Or maybe I just notice it now Breath hangs in the air like a question And I don't got any answers left [Verse 1, Minimal bass hum] Came out the other side limping Not broken — just... rewired Can't remember what I used to want Or who I was before the fire [Chorus, Hollow drums begin, No harmony] This is what I look like When I stop running Not healed Not lost Just fucking standing here In the wreck In the quiet Where the noise used to be [Verse 2, Low synth shadow, fingerpicked guitar] January light through dirty blinds Everything’s bare and waiting I eat. I breathe. I try not to think And that counts for something, I guess [Bridge, [Melancholy], [Shoegaze swirl, no lyrics, rising feedback]] [Verse 3, Spoken delivery, hushed] My hands still shake sometimes Like they forgot the war is over No villain left to fight Just me And the echo Of being needed too long [Chorus, Slightly louder, strained vocals] This is what I sound like When there’s no emergency Not brave Not broken Just here Still Trying not to flinch at the silence [Outro, Fade to solo guitar, [Winter wind FX]] January standing still Still counts Still breathing Still here [End]