I'm not disappointed, It's just my life. I'm more lost than the money I lost playing dice, But that doesn’t stop me from trying to build my paradise. Even if I don’t get out of my backyard, at least I tried. Working hard through the night, Sweating hard under the moonlight. Then I close my eyes, And I sleep tight... 'Cause I dare to dream. So keep up prayers for me And keep marching on... 'Cause with your support, Nothing's gonna knock me down, 'Cause I'm standing on solid ground. The fact that I made it this far Is just a complete miracle. So I’m not disappointed where I am. I bet you can’t say the same. When I was chasing love, You were out shadowing fame, Taking drugs and messing up your brain. Some things never change... But I can truthfully say, I’m not disappointed with my life, Even though I ended up with a wife who’s a b****. But you married my fame, You didn’t marry me. And if I still didn’t love you, I’d kick you to the streets. Either way, there’s no blood on these hands— Maybe just a ring That represents every mistake I ever made, Forged out of hate. But tomorrow is a new day, And I pray to God I don’t feel the same. 'Cause the love I have for you Is the only thing I have left to mend, Before my life is perfect. I’m not disappointed, It’s just my life. I’m more lost than the money I lost playing dice, But that doesn’t stop me from trying to build my paradise. Even if I don’t get out of my backyard, at least I tried. Running so hard, I hit the red line. But that’s okay—hey, You’ll still be my baby. Entertain me, my pretty lady. Keep my voices silent, so I don’t go crazy. And lose track Of who I am, And the fights I fight, And dreams and dreams. Anymore, they just seem to be the same thing to me. But I’m not disappointed in the man I might be. 'Cause I’m a pedigree, a man Not ashamed of where I stand. In my faith—so test me To see if I veer to the left Or crash, or give you a reason to bash me. Hack me into little pieces. But keep watching, 'cause I won’t mess up. I’ll keep marching forward, soldier. Thank the Lord and His Word, To help keep my head up in the valley Of the showdown of death, Where every breath might be another regret. But I’m not worried, 'Cause He’s already calmed my fits of rage, Healed the scars on my face and soul, And helped me not be afraid Of my reflection in the mirror. So I can accept who I am, And not be disappointed in where I stand. So that’s where I’ll be 'Til I get a better plan.
